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[dieinmanhattan]

nicholassean replied to your post “Hooray for getting pointlessly angry and upset over something that...”

Welcome to the club. We don't have snacks or anything, and it just generally sucks, but welcome anyways lolsigh

I don't know why I've chosen to fixate on this but here I am

[dieinmanhattan]

Digging LtQ. :)

Thank you so much!!!

[dieinmanhattan]

nicholassean replied to your post:I’m getting drunk

Okay, fine, I’ll join you. You should never drink alone. :)

Excellent

[dieinmanhattan]

nicholassean replied to your post:I’m trying to decide how to get my hair cut since...

the first one!

This seems to be the popular consensus

[litemaster]

An update... finally!

Sorry for the delay! I have been busy lately!

I really do not remember where I left off so long ago.

I moved from Texas to Wisconsin June 1, 2012. I was quite depressed/sad/apathetic at that time and was actually going to abandon this blog completely. I felt like I needed to start a completely new life and abandoning things about my past was a solution for that, I thought. I have not completely abandoned my past. I have not talked much with my friends down south, and most acquaintances I did abandon. Part of my family potentially could have been in the abandonment, but they have not been, yet.

I ended up being off of tumblr mainly because I had some things here and there to take up my time, and, simply, because my life was different and new.

I had moved to a new place where I needed to find a new job and get used to living "on my own" as much as I ever had in my life before. When I moved to Wisconsin, I moved in with my then Boyfriend at the time. It almost seems odd to call him a boyfriend. We had always been extremely close and knew a lot about each other that not many other people had known. We had a relationship that would not easily be terminated in any way, shape, or form. Moving on from friends to more than friends happened when I had visited him during Spring Break of my, of course, spring semester of college at Texas A&M.

We've gone beyond even boyfriends now and have promised ourselves to each other for eternity. We are currently at the "Engagement" stage in our relationship. We plan on having our ceremony in October of this year at a monastery that is close to us. We wanted our current reverend to do it, but she cannot because the bishop of our diocese has not approved use of the same-sex liturgy. His reasons behind this are actually quite good and make a lot of sense.

Anyway, We are having a ceremony in October and I am excited about it. I love Fred-Allen (He has a dual first name) very much and am glad I will get to spend the rest of my life with him. Having someone special in your life can make all the difference for a person.

Aside from that, more of my history after I moved from Texas to Wisconsin shall continue here forth. (Did I use here forth right? I wonder)  It surprisingly did not take me that long to find a job with Humana which is an insurance agency. I was hired on salary as a telesales agent. We trained to get our insurance license and then we were trained on all of their products that we were to be selling for the company. The job was good in the beginning. The job eventually took many ups and downs. Soon there were downs pouring out of the job left and right. I was thankful to have a job, but it was training. There were times where I was afraid that I was going to loose the job.

Those times happened in November where I had a one on one with my supervisor who suggested that the job may not be a good fit for me. I took that as I maybe would get fired. They are a huge corporation who sells insurance. What was I supposed to think? Supposedly there could have been opportunities for me to move to another department potentially. I think.

I didn't know the latter bit of information for a while though. To save myself and give my self another opportunity for something else, I took on a Dental Assisting course. While I worked 6 days out of the week, on the 7th day I took the dental assisting course. This was severely draining on me, and I can't believe I was able to do it, but I did it. It was a 10 week intensive training class. You had to pass a midterm test as well as a final written and practical test. I passed all the tests I had to take in the course and got my certificate.

It took me a little while to find a job, about a month. I finished the class in January and got a job in early March as a dental assistant. I was hired on as a room flipper at first with the intention to do actual assisting a good bit of the time in the future. The practical test that we had to pass should have been more practical. Being in a dental office and working was a lot different than taking a practical test and learning about it.  In the end, I believe the office, mainly the old soon to be retired doctor, needed someone with actual clinical experience. The doctor would get frustrated, impatient, and kind of had a bad attitude to the staff. (Never the patients, which WAS the good thing about it. He took excellent care of his patients in a family oriented type of situation. If there is one thing I've grew an opinion on, its the type of care you should receive at a dentist office. A corporate type of mindset is not the way to go when going to a dentist.) Did I mentioned the business manager was the doctors wife? Yep.

I began looking for a new job yet again because I did not feel safe at the current job. It turned out that I was correct this time. I worked a Thursday and immediately after I got done Thursday, I had a final interview at another job and got the job. The day after the business manager lets me know that they won't be keeping me on. It was all polite and she wished me well.

Now I am back at an insurance company, but I am working on the back end of things. I approve applications for final expense policies. It's tedious work, but it's work. I enjoy it mostly, and it's a good work place to work at. I do it well and it works out with the rest of my life.

I did recently start school back up. I am going for health information management. Because I have to work, I am taking online classes through Herzing University. It is going well so far, but it sucks sometimes having to manage a job, school, my social and love life all together at once. I'm living life to my fullest though. I'm pretty sure. I could not be doing some things. I've gone through so many new experiences and have changed even more since I moved.

Fred-Allen has kids that I've had to adopt as my own. It's not a bad thing either. I never wanted kids because they are loud and annoying and obnoxious sometimes. The truth is though, they are loud and annoying and obnoxious sometimes. But then there are the times where they aren't loud and annoying and obnoxious. You realize they look up to you and your actions and in a way they make you appreciate them and change to be a better person.

As this post is long and is kind of ending on a happy note, I shall not speak of my parents. I will save that for another time when they piss me off and I want to rant to everyone about it. (That time will come, I know it!)

Anyway, I wish all of my followers well and hope you continue to enjoy my reblogs, as I'm not posting much original these days!

[litemaster]

Moving to Wisconsin

I just came back from Wisconsin and I just told my family I was moving. I am ecstatic about moving and ready. I had such a great week and didn't want to leave...

And my "barriers" that I have put up to hold my feelings in are breaking. I know my parents don't really approve of the whole situation. I will be suspending my school career and moving out of their grasp where anything is then possible. Right now I am more sad about the situation then hateful that they still believe homosexuality is wrong. I thought I didn't care what they would think, but in the half hour since I have told them and realized their opinions and thoughts, most likely, on the matter, I have become very emotional, and by that I mean I've been crying. I don't cry. At all. My friends can attest to that. I'm just sad that they are unable to accept me fully and are unable to share in joy that I have in my relationship with the guy I am moving in with*.

I am nervous, but excited about the prospect of being out mostly on my own. I am ready and the move will happen in early June.

I don't really have anything else to say.

*for those that would say "dont move just for a guy", I was never going to at first, and that is still not all of it. I need a change in my life and to be around people who accept me and as much as it pains me to say, moving from my ignorant parents is the right thing to do.

[jaxtarr]

 nicholassean said: GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks, at this point I'm going to need it.