He's too good for me, it's s like I'm a moth drawn to his flame like I'm bound to burn... but I can't help but want to be near the warmth of his presence
His voice is like honey, it drowns out everything around me, his smile is like pure sunshine... He's got everything I never did, he's tall, sophisticated, everything a man should be...
And yet, all I can think about is his lips on mine, but I can't do it, I can't put myself through this again. every time I fall in love, I get my heart ripped out and put on display. I'm so tired of it, I'm tired of giving myself to someone just for them to toss me aside when I'm no longer the shiny new toy
I don't want to fall in love, even with him. I'm not worthy of that
I can't let him get close to me, I can't let him see my weaknesses, I can't let him see my broken piece.
But I can't stop thinking about him, his voice, his damn eyes, that stupid smile of his
He's invading my thoughts. All I can think about is being around him, letting him take care of me and love me... But what if he gets tired of me, or worse, sees my flaws and is disgusted by them ? What if I'm just a game that he's playing until something better comes along. I don't want to be hurt again, but I can't let him go...
.... I need a cigarette...
