So, they say that there's that one person out there for you right? You know that one person you just can't get off your mind. You're constantly thinking about this person. They become a huge distraction to your life, but you can't help but love it. Sure, I guess I can believe that. Honestly, I feel like I've already found someone close to being that one right girl. I really don't know, but hey there is something about her.
We don't go to the same school and I barely get to see her. We fall asleep on each other. We mess up plans. We talk for hours and hours at a time. I listen to her problems. We talk about how our lives are going. She's not great at keeping a conversation up during texting, but when we're face to face or talking on the phone, that's when the butterflies start fluttering in. Even if I don't get to see her, just hearing her voice is enough. I wouldn't say I'm in love with this girl, but I like her a lot. Honestly, I hide the fact that I'm scared and nervous when I'm with her or even when we're miles away talking through a webcam. It sucks when you can't tell whether someone likes you back or not either. It truly sucks ass. Sometimes it seems like she's really interested, however at other times it's like she doesn't seem to have any interest at all. Yeah sure everyone says that you need to tell/ask them first and then shit will happen from there. Honestly, if you'd ask me, it's a bit hard to work up the guts to actually tell someone that you like them. I mean sure there are those people that can be right up and open with it, but honestly I'm not one of those people. Should I really take a chance on possibly ruining a great friendship with her? Maybe I should. I mean what's life without taking risks right? Eff. What am I doing? I'm being a little girl about this. Whatever, I'm done.
