#nils writing

[nil-the-glitch]

The Ocean That is Life 

Our bodies are stones on a shoreline,  Beaten and weathered by waves of chaos Some crumble apart, others hold strong. 

In Life, we choose. 

Choose to live. 

Choose to survive. 

Choose to dig our heels in, or find another way. 

Choose to keep going. 

Life is not for the weak of heart, Life is not for the ones who give up, Life is not for those who let themselves be drug under. 

When the waves crash upon our bodies, When the chaos tries to make us submit, Life is for the warriors.  I am living. 

You, are living. 

Let us gnash our teeth and fight the waves, Let us scream out at what has gone wrong, Let us weep our tears of pain, And let us rise up when it is done, 

Again.  Again. Again. 

Let us live, in all it's imbalanced joy and misery. 

One stone alone would not survive this torrent, But together, we are a cliff side. 

Together, we live.

[nil-the-glitch]

do you ever just want to be held, so tenderly. 

like a prized and pristine ak-47 with a brand new paint job.

cradle me in your arms while knowing i am dangerous. while knowing my bite is at your command.

run your hands over my edges and smile, for harsh corners catch light the best and send it sparking. delight in the cruelty that shaped my kindness. understand my justice was shaped by injustice i never wish to see again.

recognize my kindness as the anger it is.

hold me.

hold me like a weapon.