Hello!
I hope you don’t find this strange, but I stumbled on your blog and had a read through your posts and I just felt the need to reach out.
When my sister was pregnant with her second, her NIPT test came back false-positive for Turners. It was the most scary experience of her life. Those few weeks between tests felt like decades, and she cried every single day. Worried about the baby, worried about her oldest who would likely be put on a shelf as his sibling required more of her time. We did everything we could to support her, but ultimately there is no counsel for something like what you’re going through. All I can say is this:
When it came back false-positive, her OB said how most cases are a false alarm and my sister just felt angry. Angry that she had several weeks of her pregnancy taken from her through fear, stress, and preparing for the worst. I remember it took a few more weeks for her to overcome that anger. She was well into the tail end of the second trimester before she started to immerse herself in the pregnancy and enjoy it. It’s been years now, and she has two healthy, beautiful girls, but she often still talks about feeling that her second pregnancy was taken from her.
Please know that I’m not suggesting you “try to ignore it” or “don’t worry until the amnio” because as mothers we know that is absolute crap. I hated hearing things like that in my pregnancies. But I do want to tell you that what you’re going through is one of the scariest, biggest things you will ever do. And I hope from the bottom of my heart you can find little moments of joy in the next few weeks. You absolutely deserve it. You deserve to find happiness and your baby deserves to be celebrated. I hope that in a few weeks this horrible chapter is behind you and your baby girl, and your shoulders feel lighter.
You’re doing an incredible job. Talking about these things isn’t easy, yet here you are putting your thoughts into words. I think that’s pretty incredible.
Sending all my best wishes to you.
Thank you so much for sending this. For the first time since hearing the results of my bloodwork I actually felt seen. It's so hard to only be told to be positive when you feel like your world is crumbling. Logically I know that the statistics are in my daughter's favor, but I was been given positive statistics with my twins that didn't pan out so it's hard for me to have faith in that. How your sister felt, that gut wrenching and crippling fear, is all consuming. I won't feel ok until I know that my baby is healthy. Thank you so much for actually acknowledging and normalizing that. I really, really needed this.
