Being scared and confused and unsure but also confident in one aspect of my future
Reading over Tayler’s blog made me even more freaked out about my future (thanks a lot!!). She wrote about constantly hearing that her degree is useless and as an English major, I can definitely agree on that sentiment. It’s annoying as hell to have someone constantly belittle your choice of study and it doesn’t make making a decision about my future any easier. I used to be in a field of study that would have been easier in which to find a job/would have provided a more reliable source for making money, but I always knew it wasn’t something I would enjoy doing for the rest of my life, and that was a very sobering thought. Would I be okay doing something I would potentially hate just for a decent paycheck? I decided that no, I don’t think I would be okay with that. Sure, I would have money, but if I hated what I did ~40 hours a week, I don’t think it would be even remotely worth it.
So I decided to switch my major to the only subject of school I’ve ever enjoyed - English. I liked it, I was good at it, and I could see myself doing something in the field for the rest of my life and not hating myself for it. And it didn’t even really matter what it was - everything sounded like something I would like. Publishing, editing, writing, studying literature, even going to law school like many English majors do. All of them sounded like something I could do and be happy with myself, regardless of how much money I was making (although, making money would be... nice).
All in all, I’m happy with the major I’ve chosen, regardless of how many people tell me daily that I’m never going to find a job. Screw you guys, I can do anything I want.