#no one understands me...

[2dogbutts]

When Mom makes u pose w brother... and says smile... but... she just Doesn't Understand U...

[mynameis-r]

//Here's a fun little rant...

One thing about me... I have emetophobia. Really, really bad.

Please, feel free to look it up. You can laugh. I don't care. Because a lot of people do when I tell them. I cannot tell you how many times people laugh in my face when I tell them my severe phobia.

I've had it since I was about 5 due to a instance with one of my friends, and ever since have been so traumatized by it. I've experienced it so, SO many times in the worst of ways, and it is one thing that will 'crack me to my core.' 

Over the years, I've gotten a bit better with the fear- I don't freak out as much as I used to, or break down and collapse to the floor, hugging myself tightly while plugging my ears, but i still panic.

Tonight, upon leaving Denny's, I go out to my car which happens to be one of the last in the lot. There's a huge thing of water that someone dumped by my car. Why? I have no freaking clue. It's just THERE. 

My eye glances to my front tire, which has a weird white foam on it from the water. I'm guessing it was some sort of dish water maybe that they employees dumped outside... I dunno. ANYWAYS, if it weren't for this water, I never would have seen the vomit sitting upon the curb.

Right.

By.

My car...

Just as I'm about to get into my car with my friend, I glance over and see it. I do a double take, even stepping a bit closer, praying silently that it's just some food someone dumped there, or a drink that they poured out.

But no.

I'm almost positive it was puke. I've seen it enough times to know what it looks like.

At first, I was completely calm. Got into my car, told my friend (who knows very well of my phobia) and drove them back to the parking lot where their car was parked.

After we got there, something just cracked inside of me. I parked my car, ran out the door, and began to scrape my feet on the grass for 10 minutes while muttering to myself. I thought I had my fear under control, but I was completely wrong.

My friend laughed at me- which, I don't blame them. I'm absolutely ridiculous when I freak out. I just felt like I had puke on my shoes and kept feeling like I needed to get it off SO bad! I began getting sick to my stomach as well, which did not help at all.

So, like I said, after about 10 minutes of this, I finally calmed down enough to say bye to my friend, who I think realizes how strange I am now after being friends with me for almost 8 years. I showered for almost 30 minutes, washed all of my wrist bands, and took medication for my stomach.

All that being said, that was a pointless rant, but I needed to get it out.

I hate my phobia with a passion... 

[magicaltennis]

I don't need actors or actresses to be pretty. I just need them to be able to act.

If they're pretty, that's an added bonus.

[fucklestat]

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[voidbubblebaby-blog]

UGH I'm in such a bad mood right now.

I was totally fine until like 5 seconds ago..