#no prude

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Harborough David Wright 2 by Uilke Via Flickr: 1952; No Prude by Jules-Jean Morac. Cover art by David Wright. Info about this great Artist by Plaisanter here: www.flickr.com/photos/plaisanter/6932414733

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7.22.13

So my friends are taking me to see “The men of Hollywood” for my 31st … I mean 30th birthday.

To be honest, I’m a bit nervous.

Before I had Bella, I was a wild child. I really enjoyed my 20’s. I don’t know what it is or why it is, but now I feel like I have turned conservative somehow. I do not want to be a prude; I’m still young and fabulous… I think. Anyway – my friends are taking me shopping on Friday to pick out a hot outfit, I’m giving them full control. I tend to dress pretty basic sometimes, well lately. I would rock the trendiest dresses and 4 “heels! I rocked a blonde A-line bob haircut with long sexy bangs, at one point I had a pixie cut which I absolutely loved; I was confident and wasn’t afraid to show it.

Things have changed a bit in the last couple of years… and I won’t blame motherhood. I am just more tired, more stressed at this time in my life, my body has changed, my hair is what my sister calls “mom hair” because I basically have it shoulder length and tend to pull it back in a bun a lot. See, I know that I can still dress up sexy, I can still pull it off, but it just doesn’t feel the same. So, my lack of confidence shows too, I can feel it. But, my priority right now is Bella, so I don’t have time to think about me, and I’m okay with that. I’m happy. I have a good guy who loves me and my daughter, she is just wonderful. I come last, and that’s fine. I love being a mom and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I am not complaining, just to be clear.

I promised myself that my 30’s were going to be great. I don’t want to be this frumpy mom / wife. I am going to let my girlfriends pick an outfit for me for Saturday night. I am going to trust they pick out something sexy, yet classy. I am 31, not 18 trying to be 31. But one of them is a real fashionista, so I know she won’t do me wrong. I just want to feel sexy for the night, like the good old days.

I am excited, yet nervous. I’m going to have strange, muscle men having their way with me.

It’s funny, Elijah asked me what the girls and I were doing for my birthday, I told him we were going to see “the men of Hollywood” and he paused for a minute and asked “ THAT is what you want to do for your birthday?? You want dick in your face?” he gave me a smirk and smiled, he doesn’t get mad at these things, so I said “hmmm….yes … Yes I do” we laughed about it and he told me to have a good time .love that we can joke around and be honest about things.  

I love going out with my girlfriends. These beautiful, sexy and accomplished women yet foul mouthed crazy horn dogs at the same time. Saturday should be interesting and I can’t wait. Even if we didn’t go there and ended up somewhere else, anywhere with these girls is a good time