#no sleeping

[crappymixtape]

yo, deadlines are fuckin' crazy. like...i'm writing an average of ~9-10 hours a day. soooo tired 😩 only 20K more words to go. manuscript due to the editor on friday. like. look at me. oh god. who is she? who is this unemployed, completely unhinged woman walking around my house?

[quillthemill]

they keep telling me to sleep. I hear them. they whisper to me.

"sleep," they coo. "sleep, sleep. youll feel better." but i can't. cant sleep. he'll come. come and get me. can't sleep. must keep eyes open.

sometimes i see them. they're grey. long hair, no eyes. or are they closed eyes? can't remember. but they speak. they hug me, hold my hands, cup them over my eyes.

all they say is to sleep. but can I really sleep? what if he comes. cant sleep cant sleep cant sleep cant sleep

they're angry with me. the tones say so. body as well. hold me down, weigh me down. force eyes closed.

"sleep." but i don't want to.

"Sleep." but i don't want to...

"SLeep." but I dont want...

"SLEEp" But i...

"sleep."

[plutokeys]

oh shit i did promise dick picks on the 16th huh. i broke every camera in the house yesterday.

[asaletad]

Team no sleep 💪🏻 @taylorswift

[perfectstormswithtay]

Me trying to figure out when I’ll be able to sleep with Taylor dropping singles like that @taylorswift

[diepod-stuff]

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another late night of messing around with fl studio

[what-is-gender-offical]

Sorry I know I keep getting distracted from the blog, and its original purpose, so um . . . I suppose my absurd unclear dysphoria taking over is good right?

I genuinely dont feel human, like people talk about just knowing their gender or even knowing they're agender, but Im here not understanding the basic concept of gender, and my stupid head decides its not okay to just not care about it.

It's almost 1 a.m. for me, that is probably not helping with the spiraling?