There is definitely banter afoot with Hot Greek Tutor. It's the same every year, we always get close in the second week after a week of sort of circling each other and occasionally talking. It's really dumb. We reset every year. I mean, there's a Booker prize winning novel out of this it's so stupid.
Anyway, definite banter and sitting next to each other at dinner and in lectures and raising eyebrows across the room. Last night we were left alone after dinner before the evening lecture and had a hilarious conversation in which he was speaking basic German to me and I was replying in even more basic Russian. I know basically no German and he knows no Russian. It was complete and utter nonsense and we were in stitches.
We went on an afternoon trip together to a lovely local town and had a splendid time looking at abbey ruins and wandering round old bookshops and playing "which house would you buy in the estate agent window if you had a spare million lying around" which is always a fun game.
We get on very well when we are alone. Absolutely no physical contact and like... maybe we're... just friends? But I do just wonder. We are both single and an appropriate age and seem to like hanging out together quite closely once we've circled around each other sufficiently. It occurs to me that maybe he is even more clueless than me. shrug emoji. He's very, very hard to read, a mixture of social openness and personal reserve. He responds well to openness and teasing and is certainly good at teasing back and initiating that but he seems to need a lot of warm-up.
Then this performance of Anything Goes was brought up at supper today which I really want to go to by someone totally separate and he asked me what it was and said he wanted to go and I sort of thought "Aha an opening!" but I rather want him to take the lead because OMG we've been here so many times before. And nothing was explicitly said but like... he wants to go... I want to go... DO THE MATHS, GENIUS. Anyway, I texted him details of the show when I got back to my room tonight. We'll see what he replies.
What do I honestly think? Because this is no expectations Greek camp and while I can't help having feelings, I'm really determined not to let them dominate things. I think he's really involved in his job which he started in the middle of Covid and getting a girlfriend is not on his radar, no matter who she is and so it just hasn't occurred to him that I'm sitting under his nose. And one day in five years time he'll suddenly look up and decide he wants to get married to someone. I may be totally wrong, as I said, I really can't read what he thinks and feels on this subject.
The one person I could ask who might have any insight is his female BFF but I find her prickly (I do like her though) and I would not want to have a personal conversation with her and lay myself open to her. Also, what if something's going on between them? Pffft. I'm trying not to consider that. That way lies madness. Must remember something someone told me recently about a whole other social situation - that a person's relationships with other people is completely out of my control. I can't do anything about how someone feels about someone else. And that should not affect my relationship with them.
LOL it's midnight. Tomorrow is the last day of the course. I should sleep.