Sometimes I really get this vibe that stuff are happening too fast. Or I just can’t believe that those things are happening to me. Either the good ones or the bad ones. To be honest...there was a time that the bad came in a greater amount and I believed that I deserved them. Now, the wheel is being turned around and I’m starting to believe that both kinds of things keep happening...it depends on how you deal with them.
Since I’ve started this blog, my life got turned around. I can barely remember the bullies from my school in New York. I started this blog as one Noelle and now I’m completely another one. I feel rather new. I’ve learnt lots of stuff, went through a lot and now I’m here, wondering if I’ll keep doing this blog journal thing to track down a progress. My progress. Call me crazy, I just...today, it was the first time in years that I stopped in the middle of Central Park and looked at the view, on my way to work. And the existential crisis has struck.
Friendships:
This has been a rocky part of my life. Probably for most of my life. I’ve been having lots of ups and downs. Especially in the beggining. I miss a lot of people I’m not talking with...anymore. They have been part of my life, they gave me life lessons and I’m happy they did. I’m not going to nag about it (or at least I’ll try). I don’t want to point fingers at people-who I’m talking about and all-and of course I am gonna try and lift up the drama that was created YEARS ago about something petty. I still love them...I respect them and even if they hurt me then...I believe I’ve grown stronger. So, thank you <3
Biggest friend of them all and partly soulmate (which he has to agree on) is the one and only Sebster Smythe. I’m irrevocably devoted to him. Things started in a very weird way, a lot of attraction was not that well expressed. We were much younger and very stupid. But, I think he has found his own soulmate and he should let me fangirl about him okay?!
Love-Love-Love:
Will-Will-Will-you have been through a lot with me. And I’m sorry.
You have been through a lot with everything else in your life and I’m sorry, I bugged you with everything else that was in my head. I’m having lots of trouble in believing that someone else loves me and cares for me, as much as you do. And I love you, too. I don’t know as much as you but...thank you for coping with me and my crazy, busy and matchmaking self.
I think this has been a good beggining. I’m probably going to continue doing this and write more stuff about lots of things-just to get them out.
