You are allowed to take twice as long untangling your heart from him as you spent loving him.
I always said "this blog won't be about my personal relationship with the one I love", but I need to write something down. I need to clear my thoughts. Today, February 4, 2015, is the day we are officially over. Its kind of weird, because last year around this time is when we broke up, and from then on we were on/off for the year. How time can fly. I pray that I will get over you quickly. I need to. I do not want you to have control over me anymore. I can not allow you to abuse me mentally and emotionally anymore. To this day, I can say I have always loved you more than you loved me, I am okay with saying that. However I believe that a man's love should always be stronger than a woman, because women will always love you unconditionally. You didn't deserve my love. You deserve the way I felt for you. I loved you like you were my husband. However, as the relationship progressed for three years, I also believed that you had a control over me, and you knew this. You knew we didn't love each other on the same level. You knew you had a control over me, because I always came back, no matter what you did to me, I always came back. I am going to miss you so much, no matter what I will always say you were my first love. But I honestly can say its time. I am truly like deeply tired of crying you. I have cried more than 3000 times over you and I know its going to be so hard, but I have to do this. I no longer have the strength for me and you. You have broken me. "A heart is meant to be broken" -Oscar Wilde. I believe you broke my heart. You did, you broke me mentally and emotionally. In a way, I feel like it was okay that I hurt you because you have done way worse. I just wanted that feeling of control back, I just wanted to be over you. The way you treated me was like pure shit and I knew I deserved better than that. I need my own mind. I need to get back to myself. I need to become stronger for myself. I have to. I need to have control over myself. I need to love myself. The Power of the Pussy.