#non cod posting

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Guineas in a bowl

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me after eating chili and not realizing it has tomatoes in it until it was too late

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A quick update, just cause I've been silent and will probably continue to be a bit silent and I want to let my followers know what's up. So, outside of what I mentioned in my last post, I've just recently, like my first day was today, started my first job. Which does conflict with the free time I did originally have to write. I still want to write and continue posting, and I doubt there will even be a noticable difference in the amount of times I post. But I did want to mention kinktober. I still want to write for the prompts. However- I don't think I'll actually be able to post them within the span of October. So I'll probably reference kinktober and just continue posting even afterwards if that makes sense.

Also- I'm kinda drained from my cod fixation at the moment, which makes it hard to write cause my tism could care less about the fandom. So once again I do apologize for the decline in my posts recently. I appreciate all the people who have followed me and have liked my past posts. <3

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So I got into these 'hibernation' periods every few months, where my energy levels dip to a point getting out of bed is just so exhausting that I'm left fucking folding over on myself and needing a nap afterwards. Doesn't help that I'm so tired that I don't have the energy to take care of myself (eating, going to the bathroom, ect.) Anyways that's why I've been quiet for this week. It feels like I've got maybe one or two more days in my hibernation cycle until I'm able to get out of bed without needing a nap afterwards. So once this is over I'll write up something to post. now if you excuse me...writing this has made me sleepy.

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I wonder if all love will end up with me feeling like a dog waiting outside to be let in. If it'll always be an empty bed for comfort from my tears. Replacing the empty space with stuffed animals. If it'll always feel like being a child. Crying louder in the hopes that my mother would come comfort me, and knowing she never has and never will. Is it dedicating one of my stuffed animals to your image and to your feel, and when I want to crawl into your arms, I instead hold it in mine. And will love always be me waiting outside the door, pawing at it just like every day before. Knowing the door won't open. But it is love anyways.

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Y'all, I'm staying at my grandma's for a bit and I always have to like fight not to cry the first day visiting cause they have so much food. So like I don't have to worry about eating my full. I had TWO tacos for dinner and I'm currently all giddy over the slight too full feeling. I could die happy right now. I love having food to eat, especially food that isn't just cereal or waffles. So nice and yummy.

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if y'all start seeing me posting for the other fandoms I'm a part of (*cough cough* t.m.n.t *cough cough*), I don't want to hear shit. My other husbands miss me and wish I would return home already. </3

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me- *writing two paragraphs of my fic before my burn out catches me by the balls* hmm yes...very nice. Now to play grow a garden.

also me- I really need to write more, *proceeds to not do so*