#nonbinary blogging

[drivemysoul]

@ my fellow nonbinary folks you’re all doing amazing and I hope you have an amazing day.

[alpacatecture]

Dysphoria is a hell of a drug, like, wtf... I know I have a very masculine looking body and I hate it so hard but like wtf I see men and their masculine bodies and think “damn he’s sexy lemme at that” but I can’t look at my own masc body in the mirror and think “damn they sexy lemme at that.” Like wtf is wrong with my brain. Non-binary sucks and I hate

[drivemysoul]

my mother when i came out to her: *shame and judgement*

my grandma when i came out to her: oh okay!! i’ll knit you a blue beanie for when you feel like a boy! do you want me to knit one with your flag’s colours?

[drivemysoul]

“You know that cutting your hair will make you look like a boy, right?”

[drivemysoul]

I have decided that my response to people saying nonbinary people aren’t real is to just be aggressively more nonbinary.

[drivemysoul]

I had this moment today that I really want to share.

I was laying on my bed, writing in my journal, and I was thinking about how differently I’d be treated if I was a boy. That thought trailed off to “the gender binary is stupid,” and then eventually I had this moment.

I’m nonbinary.

It was one of the most amazing feelings I’ve ever had. I’ve been identifying as nonbinary for a while, but when it hit me today it felt like this huge wave of self-doubt washed away.

All those nights I’d cried myself to sleep wondering if I was faking it, wondering if this was me in denial, wondering if this whole thing was me needing to feel special. Suddenly they all just felt like distant memories.

It was the first feeling of gender euphoria I’ve felt since I realised I was something other than cis, and it was the most magical feeling in the world.

It felt like falling in love, in love with who I am, a thousand times over and all at once.

I know that this won’t be easy, and I know that this won’t magically solve all the struggles with my identity. But that one little moment in the quiet of my room, just alone with myself, made me realise I’m here, and I’m real, and my identity is real, and the way I’m feeling is real.

[drivemysoul]

To anyone still trying to figure out their gender: it’s okay to change labels. If you decide one day that you’d prefer to identify as something different to how you identify now, that’s perfectly okay! Your gender is beautiful and valid, whatever gender that may be.

[drivemysoul]

To the parents who accept their trans kids and make an effort to do your research on the topic: Thank you. You’re amazing, and so many of us wish for parents like you.