My Biggest Fear
For the past six years, I've worked hard to be successful and to make it to where I am. Looking back I truly have been blessed with the opportunities and people that I have encountered. My coworkers are my best friends and they understand how I'm feeling without me having to explain myself. But regardless of all the blessings I have been presented with, these five individuals have been my life and soul. The fire that continues to burn in my heart is due to these persons. My faith, my life, my happiness, my sadness, my anxiety, my laughter, my hunger for success.
Three of them are related and are therefore held together by blood and family. Myself and another are not related but we are related through christ. I met them through christ, through service. We have grown closer and matured through this. And yet somewhere along the way, attendance became more important than love. People always throw around the word love and randomly stated empty promises like "I would die for you". I would absolutely die for these individuals. I would chase them to the ends of the earth, I would give them everything I have to help them. I think about them every waking moment of everyday ever since August 4, 2006.
Having people that mean this much to you is a blessing. To be able to experience this love and friendship is a blessing. Being told that you aren't needed in one's life though, is utterly heartbreaking. To give someone your all to just be pushed away for others who aren't dedicated is a huge slap in the face. I may no longer lay myself down on the floor for you to walk all over me but please remember that I will forever be here standing by. I will forever wish you the best and pray for your happiness and success. I pray that one day you will be as comfortable in this world and as happy with life as I am.