#not go

[gardeninthevoid]

i bitterly wish that, in addition to being told "asking for help is a vital skill" over and over, i was told "deciding who to ask for help is a vital skill" just as often.

[gardeninthevoid]

any time i come to a new hairdresser and explain what i want they go "you're gonna need to walk me through that again" and "are you sure?" through the entire process so i assume they're judging me. and then at the end they're invariably like "thank you for this, my job is usually so boring. can i take photos?" and they call every coworker at the salon to look

last time (jan) ↓

[gardeninthevoid]

if we think people can change for better we gotta accept that it's not just an immediate jump from point a (the bad one) to point b (the good one).

like if someone genuinely believes all queer people are abominations, and then eventually they think that gay people are pretty cool actually and deserve rights (as long as they're cis, gender conforming, monogamous, don't ask for too much representation, don't get too angry at homophobes, and their sexual expression is not too unusual)... i get that the second thing still sucks but what use is there in acting like it's functionally the same.

someone who used to be actively abusive and is putting in the work to not be anymore might still be kinda toxic and generally annoying and not express remorse in the ways you'd want them to.

sometimes they'll get there if we give them some time. and sometimes they won't and we just kinda have to take what we can get. it's not uplifting to think about but that's literally just how it is. idk man i feel like it's worth keeping in mind

[gardeninthevoid]

i've never really had a russian accent, but i recently realized (with horror) that i affect a pretty strong one when teaching small children, because if i speak normally they just don't understand me. i guess the better alternative would be enunciating very carefully like a radio dictor. anyway.

picture this. kris, who speaks perfect american-passing english, comes in to work, where he gets paid for speaking english, and suddenly starts talking like a character created during the red scare.

[gardeninthevoid]

yesterday i slept for 3.5 hours. however today i slept for 14. math says this means i am taking perfectly adequate care of myself

[pxnklemxnade]

finally got a job. feeling like killing myself. everyone is (somewhat) nice but i feel like they treat me like an idiot. honestly just want my paycheck; but if i don't have it by the 30th i will weep like a child yayyy

[gardeninthevoid]

oh little fern, lend me some of your resilience...