i know a lot of you kind of know what has been going on with me. i dont really talk about it much, because im not the type of person to share my emotions and personal problems.
so, the quick run-down is that i got fired a little over a month ago. i believe my mental state had a lot to do with that. but i believe it worked out for the better.
i was very depressed and anxious all the time. i was crying a lot, couldn't sleep, avoided a lot of social situations, hid away, and got really bad dermatophagia compulsions. i hadnt really pieced it all together until the beginning of the year, that a past traumatic event was the cause of all my problems.
i started going to a therapist a few weeks ago and i believe it's helping a lot! my doctor also put me on zoloft, which has helped take a lot of the edge off. turns out that i have ptsd and social anxiety/phobia. my therapist suggested that i get this book, which is very helpful. i'd definitely suggest it to anyone that experiences any type of anxiety or phobias.
im in the process of moving back with my family. they are very supportive and i couldn't be more happy about that. so right now, im working on getting back to a comfortable state. ive been thinking of maybe going to school. there are a lot of options open for me. but both my family and i want to get my mental health in-check before trying to take on anything else.
i felt like sharing, because i consider a lot of you my friends and i dont think that this is anything to be ashamed of. i also know many of you suffer from anxiety or other similar disorders, etc. im still learning about it, myself, but if you ever want to talk about it, im a good listener.
thanks for reading. you're all so kind ♥♥
