#not qd

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where did my queue shortcut button go? :( @staff

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omg the queue is back!! i am, consequently, back on tumblr.

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Shuffled my queue because I think I q'd up way too many Stardew Valley posts all at once... (072625)

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y'know what, i'm just gonna make it a habit to shuffle my queue like once a month (022625)

SHUFFLED AGAIN! NOTHING WILL MAKE SENSE ANYMORE! (011625)

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Shuffled my queue because why the fuck not, now I don't know where anything is.

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im about to hit the 1k limit again im going to cry this is making tumblr unusable for me right now aksjskss

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UPDATE 3:

Tried to clean up my queue to give me more space to, well, queue more but fuck, I only managed to get it down by 50 posts. FIFTY!!! What the fuck. My queue now sits at a cushy 950. Should I increase the frequency even more?? Inconceivable.

.....I'm gonna do it. For like, a week maybe. Gosh I'm so sorry for showing up in your dashboards so frequently.

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UPDATE 2:

if you see me posting more than usual its because im slowly going through my queue and culling all the already tagged posts to make some space. god. i hate that im making tumblr into a chore but here we are.

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UPDATE 1:

hmmmm i have a vague idea on how to save my queue but im still working on irl stuff but its exciting to think about atm

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ohmygod. i didnt know you cant queue more than 1000 posts. :/ guess ill just be increasing the frequency then. so sorry about that

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Odysseus: *blinds a cyclops, leaves him alive* REMEMBER ME

Odysseus, 1 saga later:

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you ever think how crazy the paths your thoughts take, the places your meandering clicking in the internet go to, the new destinations bringing you back to some old--well not old, not forgotten even, but perhaps some beloved corner you hadn't visited in a while.

anyway, i digress. it started of all things, by making a broadway playlist. nerdy and uncool perhaps, but i ended up listening to the hamilton mixtape for the first time in a long while and i stumbled on to the valley forge demo and guess what i heard clearly when my ears finally decided to pay proper fucking attention while fixing formulas in a blurry spreadsheet?

"The summer soldier and the sunshine patriot will, in this crisis, shrink from the service of their country."

i recognized it immediately: Thomas Paine and the American Crisis. not even mandated reading for me, i'm not fucking american. guess where I have read it though. from "Not Easily Conquered" that stucky fic, the gospel that is the only correct canon ending for Steve and Bucky if Captain America actually did do what he did at the end of Endgame and lived through the war and everything after.

yeah i dont know what my point is anymore. the point is, its fucking weird that bingeing hazbin hotel led to me making a broadway playlist to listen to while working, listened to a song i never even appreciated the first time i listened to it, but all of a sudden, my ears can suddenly clearly hear words that have been deeply embedded into the subconscious of my brain and intertwined with my notion of love and romantic fiction, that my brain immediately routed into a fucking slash-fic instead of what is obviously a political treatise that is historically important, i mean, idk i don't actually know what it's about. sorry?

of course i read it again, i read and wept across all thirteen letters again, i fell in love with romance again with how bucky barnes was so resigned yet feral about loving a spitfire of a boy turned into a mascot of a man, his golden boy before he was anyone else's.

"But I loved you first. As long as they get that right, I don’t care what they say."

god. i don't even remember how i found this fic but i'm so deeply grateful that did. that these two authors in ao3 came together and wrote something that completely rewired my brain. this fic deserves to be canon, god i beg it of you. that the canon timeline actually recognizes this as a better could have been.

there's a point here, how my old previous clicking led me to not easily conquered, and now here we are again. i dont know, my brain is so messed up after reading it again. i dont think i cant continue working. ah fuck.

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uhhh im still in a capri state of mind and my feed is gonna reflect that in (looks at queue) maybe 20 days

(there's also a stucky interlude it between so)

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god fucking damn it, my queue ran out again while i wasnt looking