@notcrudematter said: ‘ i am becoming everything we always dreamed of & i am leaving you behind. ’ (notcrudematter - from ani) (hehehe)
each word hits her heart like a shot from a blaster --- it tears right through, shredding tissue to pieces and pulling it apart like tugging a string. once a piece is pulled, an entire woven tapestry is upended and left unraveled in pieces unable to be put together again. her chest swells with the cold grip of fear, her head swimming with thoughts that cannot come to fruition. how can she, a queen and a senator, not be capable of coming up with the words needed to work sense into him? he’s going, he’s going, and he’s too far gone. out of reach, and even a touch of her hands to his soft locks of golden-tinted hair isn’t enough.
tears well up in her eyes and her throat is swollen terribly, lips parted and dry. “ anakin, ” her brow lifts in a defeated attempt to plead with him, to beg him to come back to her. he won’t. “ please, ” she is forthright and steadfast, even if she feels weak in the knees and ready to collapse. “ don’t break my heart like this. don’t leave me when we have worked so hard for so long. my --- my soul is on fire, don’t overwhelm it with more flames. this isn’t part of our dream. ”
but it’s useless. and hopeless. and the world around her is shattered. there is no light and no grace, only the end of the galaxy as all she’s known and loved comes to an end. she’s lost the fight for freedom and she’s lost the love of her life. and the porcelain doll she has portrayed inside and out is left discarded. padme can feel as the last bit of struggle dies within her --- if she is left defeated, and he has left her, then all is lost.