#notdoingsowell

[andylomasuk]

#bernardlomas #superdad #notdoingsowell #fuckparkinsons (at Benalmádena, Spain)

[lowcarbshenanigans-blog]

I don't know what his fascination with the bathtub is, but whenever I open the bathroom door he always jumps in the tub. #kitty #playing #hideandseek #notdoingsowell #blackcat #shade #ismyname #hidingismygame (at Spokane, Washington)

[quickdrugs]

i want to smile and not feel like i don't deserve it afterward

[blackisthecolorofmysoul]

Ugh I hate this. I'm exhausted but my brain just won't stop thinking about how much I need to get done and how much of a disappointment I am and how I'm just doing nothing with my life. And I'm terrified because I need to get the birth control implant in my arm taken out and then replaced and I hate needles and last time I got it put in I had a really bad delayed panic attack and I smashed my head on the bathtub and gave myself a concussion and now I don't even have anyone to go with me and I have no money to pay for it anyway. I hate asking my mom because I'm just a leech and I hate asking for things, but no matter many fucking jobs I apply to no one calls, I hear nothing.  Not for lack of trying,  I apply at maybe 20 places every few days. I've handed out my resumes in person to pretty much every place within my travel distance and I don't know what else to do. People tell me my resume is fine, I've had two jobs. I just don't know anymore.  Yeah I want to study something but I have no fucking money and I have no idea how to do centrelink and my mom is so busy with work I don't even want to bring it up. We're most likely getting kicked out of our house because they haven't renewed our lease and if that happens we're royally fucked because we're very nearly broke. I feel useless and hopeless and I don't know what I can do to change that except what I'm doing already and I hate it.