#notes about myself

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Getting to know me

Tagged by 💜💙 @bangtanloverboys 💙💜

1. What do you prefer to be called name wise? Jay or Han is fine. Pyn is just mainly a nickname I just use like a pen name-ish.

2. When is your birthday? Aug 4th

3. Where do you live? SEAsia but if you know me well enough and scrounge around you know where exactly.

4. Three things you are doing right now? "writing", watching videos, drinking water (i guess?? cause idk what third thing im doing but i have my glass next to me. Being alive maybe?)

5. Four Fandoms that have piqued your interest right now? BTS (I mean clearly...), CritRole, very interested in what the deal is with BDG, and trying to figure out what the hell is going down with the Homestucks (it's been awhile since I've touched it again).

6. How the pandemic treating you? I'm aight since this is just me on a daily basis but without a job so yeah... I do miss going out with JX and going to the library to see if there are new books to read.

7. A song you can’t stop listening to right now? Hmmm... I've been going back to listen to We Are by One OK Rock every few days now.

8. Recommend a movie? If you're not to into historical war movies then I'm sorry I don't neccessarily know what to recommend. Please don't ask me why I like these kinds of movies either cause I have No Idea™. So yeah, recommendation: Saving Private Ryan, 1917, The Imitaion Game. Oh! Here's two Ghibli’s: Kiki's Delivery Service, Princess Mononoke. I realise now it said A movie but we're too far in now. lol.

9. How old are you? Coming on 21.

10. School, University, Occupation or other? I'm trying to stay alive. *finger guns*

11. Do you prefer hot or cold? Cold cause you can put on another layer if you're cold but if you're hot, you just suffer. Also I just feel more comfortable in the cold and wearing more layers.

12. Name one fact others may not know about you. What do people not know about me?? Mmmmh, why is nothing coming up to mind when I know I have definite weird facts... How about just a terrible memory instead? I onced confessed to a boy and got rejected with him just saying "You may leave now." after I told him my feelings. What a great day that was.

13. Are you shy? Mmmm yeah? I look like I talk much but really I'm terrible at holding conversation.

14. Do you have any prefered pronouns? He/They

15. What’s your favourite “-dere” Type? I don't have a personal favourite but I like drifting towards Yanderes and Kuuderes. Of course Kuuderes being the non dangerous one to drift towards.

16. Any pet peeves? It's just a trivial one. People (mainly strangers or people I'm not as close to) touching my things.

17. Rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 means being the best you could ever be! We're at about a 4 so it's not as bad as it can be.

18. What’s your main blog? This blog!!

19. List your sideblogs and What they are used for!

I have too many? Like I have eight???

@dawndrms, my fanfic blog

@triptych-calamity, my shit post and reference blog shared with Kai and JX but neither of them use it anymore I think

@tinyhannie , a theme referene and wishlist-esque blog

I have two askblogs but no one cares about those

I also have a TXT update blog but I havent touched that in a while. 

I have a witch ref blog and a... nsfw-esque blog but that's nothing much.

20. Is there anything people need to know about you before being friends with you? I am terrible at holding conversations sometimes and I don't really start conversations. If I don't reach out to you first in a long long while, it doesn't mean I don't like you or anything, I just am useless at that. I probably think about you a lot tho. But I am trying to stop being such a coward about not reaching out first! :3

Tagging: @ditttiii, @aiimaginesbts, @rielleria no-one else is coming to my brain now, oof. Feel free to not do it if you don’t want to!!

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“Top 10″

Tagged by the very lovely @serenililly to do a top 10 KPop song list thingy and let me tell you I did not follow any guideline whatsoever. I take the title with an ocean of salt.

So this "list" is just me messing with myself more than anything. I usually rotate between Day6, BTS, FTIsland, N.Flying and Stray Kids in my phone so this is just giving me an excuse to find other songs that I've stuffed away in my private yt playlist and listen to them again. I've gone down a rabbit hole...

(if you say that you were cheating with choosing songs and having honourable mentions, I'm basically criminal. There's more than a good 50 songs mentioned in this "list". Put me in a jail cell...)

Be forewarned; I talk a lot, so, everything is under the cut.

TL;DR I shoved all the songs that I really like into one post depite being told it is a top 10 song list. (also I've given up tagging anyone in doing this cause idk who to tag *finger guns*)

Eric Nam - Runaway (Honourable mentions: Love Die Young [I know this one's an english song but god is it good])

First off, let's be real. This song was going to get on this list one way or another. I wrote a FLUFF FIC for JUNGKOOK with this song. It made me write fluff for a guy a I don't even necessarily care to have fluff with. It somehow wrecked me as a person and god does it scare me. It's a romance that I want with my entire heart and I wrote it for someone who isn't my bias in anyway. What can that tell you?

ok but the song is one that I go back to about every week. I can't get sick of it. And if you listen to it with the English version right after it, it becomes such a whiplash. Eric knows how to mess with me.

Day6 - 365247 & Emergency  (Honourable mention: Deep in love, Hi Hello, Dance Dance, Shoot Me)

Look I try to keep it to one song per artist but the Entropy album was a fcking all kill for me. This album would be on number 1 if this was on a top ten album list instead. (If bts hadn't stolen my heart already at the time, Day6 would have been my ult of all time because these boys are hilarious.)

365247 is such a funky tune and I find myself seeking out this song everytime I'm feeling a little spunky. Feels like one of those sexual tension songs to me for some reason but I love it.

Emergency is a bit of a mess but like in the best way. Just the sounds of blaring sirens and heart monitors just, my god. The way the lyrics were paced to fill the theme in even more was so good. What can I say? Like, it was a really well done song. And I am head over heels for it. (also the fact there is a dance for this song is amusing)

FTIsland - Pray (Honourable mentions: Stay, Hello Hello, Falling Star, Memory, Take Me Now, Paper Plane)

*stares down the Japanese releases* Oh god I love those. It was hard to separate them from the Korean releases because the Japan releases were the ones that got me to FT and eventually, K-Pop in general. But then I also remember that there are songs that have a Korean version. As much as I am more familiar with the Japanese versions, the Korean versions are great too.

The reason why I chose Pray as the top song is I guess just the state that I was when it came out. Like, I felt it through my bones and it kind of never left. So whenever I listen to Pray, I have the visceral feeling that I need to scream at a god. I don't but it just relieves it by the end of the song. (also Rock that I can scream to when I actually want to)

Jonghyun - Before our Spring (Honourable mentions: Take the Dive)

Simply known as the song that broke me and put me back together. It's now the song that reminds me that there's more to live for. I don't think I can listen to this song without at least tearing up a little. I'm sorry Winter Angel and thank you.

N.Flying - The Real (Honourable mentions: Hot Potato, Rooftop, 4242)

THE REVIVAL of my darling boys. God how much I had missed them and the return being one of the stupidest mvs I know (not counting anything from norazo or Psy), it was so perfect. And then the follow up being Hot Potato, just N.Flying had such a great revival that really suited them as a group. I always go back to it whenever I need a smile.

Epik High - Born Hater (Honourable mentions: Lullaby for a Cat, People Scare Me)

This one is the only one with no real reason why I picked it. I just really like it and it had a lot of people contibuting to the song.

The Rose - Baby (Honourable metions: She's in the rain, Red)

Back to my band shennanigans (if you haven't noticed the list being almost half bands). The Rose holds a good place in my heart too. With a voice like Sammy boy's, it's had for me to not have them in the back of my head as I listen to songs on desktop.

AKMU - Time and Fallen Leaves (Honourable mentions: Melted, How People Move, Chocolady, Re-Bye)

I listened to this song A LOT when it came out in 2014. Back when I was still in secondary school going through my depressive teen phase (i'm joking, but am I tho). But really this song was what kept me going and not just find a easy route out. It kinda gave me sense of hope. Cause where else do you fall back when all your friends actually really hated you?

BTS (Well duh) - 소우주 (Mikrokosmos) (Honourable mentions: SPRING MF DAY, Magic Shop, Mono, Anything Jimin has put out solo-wise, Dionysus, DDaeng ect.)

(link goes to the live version of the mma performace in the bangtan bomb)

Every song since the WINGS era has gotten so strong and well done. And it keeps getting better It's been just so hard to figure out which song is the one I'd pick to listen to always.

I was just about to put Spring day as the top but I remembered Mikrokosmos. Idk what it is about Mikrokosmos but it's found a permanent place in my heart for songs that comfort me the most. It inches Spring day in the top spot of fave. I used to have a playlist with all my comfort songs in one but I accidentally deleted it and im too lazy to recompile it tho.

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Honourable mentions (Songs out of my heavy rotation)

Orange caramel - Catallena Lim Kim - Rain, Goodbye 20, Awoo Heize - Jenga (ft. Gaeko), Don't Know You Bol4 - Bom, Galaxy IU - BEEP BEEP, Palette Zico, IU - Soulmate Block B - Yesterday,  Toy Bastarz - Zero For Conduct, Make it Rain Vixx - Into the Void, The Closer, Shangri-La, Black Out TXT - Poppin Star, Run Away 10cm - Pet,  Phonecert Stray Kids - Awkward Silence

And ok I'll stop. I have to stop.

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Q Tag.

Tagged by: @angustdissin

1. Ultimate bias/biases? There is only currently Jung HoSeok who has me in his arms and don want to let go...

2. Who are your TOP 3 groups? BTS, CNBastards and FTIdiots.

3. What are your 3 favourite songs? Currently most played is Cypher part 4, Crooked and Run (AA) Faves for now though are The manual, Cypher part 4 and Hello hello.

4. What do you like to do in your free time? Write, watch old shows, catch up on dramas by marathon. Stare into space and dissociate.

5. Are there any places you would like to visit that you haven’t already visited? Moscow, around Korea, around England, around Canada and NEW ZEALAND CAUSE SHEEEEEP.

6. Do you have a dream job? Anything with music or creative writing really.

7. If you could meet ANY Korean CELEBRITY (Includes Actors, Models, K-Music artists, ect., who would it be? I am very quick to say Tablo. But then I would meet so many but one person I really really want to meet and give him the tightest hug ever would be Min Yoongi cause I miss him.

8. What do you love the most about your bias group/groups? They just... Idk. I’m attracted to idiots. Kai can vouch. Other than that they are very open about their certain experiences.

9. Who are your ultimate bias wreckers? Hmmmm... Let’s see can I use this as an open letter to them? Imma use it as an open letter to them.

To Kim TaeHyung of BTS: Piss off son. You let your grip lose on me and as such Hobi snatched me so suffer that. I do not deserve this rudeness from you cause heck it was your fault son not mine.

To Lee JooHeon of MonstaX: We are young. I don’t know you well and you don’t know me. I am unsure why you are so very insistent on clutching onto the back of my shirt and getting me to notice you. Calm your chill and just work it out. We are still young so please don’t struggle to get me like this cause i don’t think hobi appreciates it...

10. What do you wish for the most to happen? Me not being born. I mean having better days in the future where I don’t have to rely on meds. :3

11. When did you get into kpop and how? 2007/8. I was so freaking young. I blame the FTIdiots...

12. What made you decide to have a tumblr blog? Depression and suicide thoughts. not gonna hide.

13. Favourite colour? No. 1 fave? Dark navy almost reaching to black.

14. Favourite animal? No. 1 fave? Foxes.

15. What are your interests? (or favourites) I have so many though so I’ll put it vaguely: Knowledge to make myself better or just for trivia.

16. Would you prefer music or movies? Music no doubt cause I can make that into a movie in my head. :3

17. What would you like to achieve (or experience) before the age of 60? If i can make it that long? Uh be able to speak comfortably in three or four languages.

any one who wants to do it go ahead.

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Taggy.

RULES: tag blogs you want to get to know better. (shhhhh we know thats not going to happen cause I am crap at keeping tags going. like it all dies with me)

Thanks @angustdissin (learn me more and all ya gone get is probably a depressing story at the end... I’ll try not to go so much into it though)

Gender: Male

Star sign: Leo sun

Height: 167 cm (I am a smol child...)

Sexual orientation: Demi/grey-homo sexual (I’m pan-romantic though so that’s more open cause I am a sucker for romance)

Hogwarts house: Official Slytherin

Favourite colour(s): Crimson, Scarlet (well reds basically) Dark blues and soft browns (grey and black too but those are shades and not colours apparently)

Favourite animal: All kinds of cats, wolves and No. 1 spot goes to foxes.

Average hours of sleep: I work with 6-8 hours with my meds cause I’m screwy with my sleep schedule. Without the meds it can range from no sleep to about 4 hours.

Cat or dog: I’m a cat person ((I still love dogs cause hell yeah gimmie some pups))

Favourite fictional character: I don’t know if I have one but if i must choose among my children... River Song cause that lady’s entire arc and life hit me so hard and I love her so much. So much conflict in a person but masked so well.

number of blankets: I have two blankets. A jacket by bed side as standby if not enough.

favourite singer/band: Kpop band is currently BTS. Singer is my wonder child Eddy Kim. English band is well... hmmm... I am torn between so many. Singer, Idk.

dream trip: Travelling to all the art and/or history museums all over the world.

dream job: Anything to do with music or audio cause that is my passion. Next to that is writing of course.

when was this blog made: This particular one? Uh March? Of 2013?

number of followers: Hundred twenty something. Don’t really keep track.

Ok the last one is gonna be under a cut cause Imma just gonna be through with explaining a bit. its not gonna answer a lot of questions. might leave you with some. I am ok to talk about it with like I dont care about that part of my life anymore so im neutral about it.

what made you decide to create this blog: Ok here’s the thing, I created this particular blog to actually help me along with my broken self. So I created it to just help me feel better, make the pain and emptiness of depression just go away. It was also created to just get me to do something other than lay around steeping in nasty deathly thoughts so it kind worked. I filled it up with lots of random things then I got into reblogging things I liked like kpop so it ended up being really helpful. I’m slightly depended on it now but that’s how it is plus I don’t mind it. (also the bad things dont come so often anymore which means i’m here to enjoy this site and my blog.)

[nixierain]

Yk, for a therian, I dont go outside that much

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE nature but...

Bugs...

And its either too hot or too cold :( (Mi weather is weird)

And.... I'm an indoor cat... Very much and indoor cat

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I am a Heizou main, yes. But I am a support main first in a co-op. I am your healer. I am your sheild. I try my best to be your enabler. I am a Heizou main, yes but I am your support.

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About Neptune!

🐾 Pseud: Neptune Pyn

🐾 Nicknames: Nep, Pipyn, misc. (Take your pick)

🐾 August ‘99

🐾 He/They | Demi-guy | Grey Aroace

🐾 Fanfiction Writer @mlkydrms

Watching:

Critical Role Campaign 4: Aramán [Heavy Backlog]

Umamusume

Playing:

✨ Genshin Impact [AR 60]

Main: Ga-ming | Furina | Lan Yan | Kuki Shinobu

Second: Nefer | Lauma | Columbina | Kuki Shinobu

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🚂 Honkai: Star Rail [TL 70]

Main: The Herta | Herta (puppet) | Aventurine | Fugue

Second: Sparxie | Sparkle | Cipher | Dan Heng P.T.

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📼 Zenless Zone Zero [IK 58]

Main: Yixuan | Ju Fufu | Lucia [Belion]

Top Interests

Music Groups:

N.Flying || LUCY BTS || &TEAM

Games:

Genshin Impact || Honkai: Star Rail || Zenless Zone Zero Love & Deepspace Umamusume Pretty Derby

Shows:

Kamen Rider (W | OOO | Wizard) Super Sentai (Don Brothers | King Ohger) Critical Role Iron lung || Project Hail Mary

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Interview?

Tagged by lovely @excusemin uwu <3

Rules: answer questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better!

Name/ Nickname: Neptune Pyn, Pipyn, Nepnep, Hannie.

Gender: He/They, Demi-boy

Star Sign: Leo Sun

Height: 170cm or 5'7 for you 'mericans

Time currently: 8:46pm

When is your birthday? 

August. That's all you'll get.

Favorite bands: BTS, N.Flying, Day6, LUCY, ONE OK ROCK (I need to diversify...)

Favorite solo artists: Eric Nam, Stella Jang, John Park, Dodie, BOL4 (I AM SO SAD SHE'S A SOLO NOW), 10cm

Song stuck in your head: Istanbul (Not Constantinople) by The Might Be Giants

Last movie you watched: The fuck did i watch??? I don't recall a lot of when I watched movies. I can tell you if I watched something but not when I watched it.

Last show you binged: The Umbrella Academy Season 1 (I was doing a rewatch)

When you created your blog: May '13

Last thing you Googled: Starsilver Genshin Locations (uuuuuuh questing....)

Do you have other blogs?

 Yes. More than I know what to do with but my active blogs are about 4.

Do you get asks?

 Not any more~~

Why did you choose your url? 

I have a thing for consonant names. 

And Milky Dreams looked nice without its vowels.

How many people do you follow? 

277

How many followers do you have? 

200+

What's the average hours of sleep you get?

 6-8 hrs

I strive to keep that cause i will not make the mistake of being my Sec School self ever again

What is your lucky number? 

3, 4, 13

Do you play any instruments? 

If you give me a brass instrument and their respective finger charts, I'll be ok in an hour.

Used to be a French Hornist in my school’s wind band

I just jumped and played every other brass instrument it could get my hand on during section practice.

What are you currently wearing?

Printed Tee and old school shorts

What is your dream job?

at this point? Idk? Librarian maybe?

What is your dream trip?

Mmmm... Japan, Korea, Russia and maybe Greece

What is your favorite food? 

Noodles. 

Dumplings. 

Keropok lekor (idk how to translate this one)

A nicely cooked egg on lightly toasted slice of bread. 

Savoury pancakes.

Fried Fritters

(well i guess anything that has flour in it. I lik bred.)

What is your nationality?

SG

What is your favorite song?

Things change but currently I'm back to feelin it up with Jimin's Lie

3 fictional universes?

Can I just say the worldbuilds i've made for my OCs? 

Cause nothing comes to mind right now lol.

20 people to tag: Uuuuuuuh yeah im not good at passing these on. kek