On Love and Beginning to Care
You just want to show them how much you care.
Without being weird or creepy. Just the right amount of weird to show them how you process...
but not scare them.
And second guessing what exactly your feelings are. You want to rush to that moment when you're both completely sure - because there are words for sureness.
Are there words for the interim? For wanting to be around someone all the time, for expressing how much fuller you feel around someone, to wanting to say "i love you" (because you do) but knowing not to, not knowing what that would actually mean or who they actually are? To thinking about them all the time but not having the standard components and check marks and required knowledge of them to validate the feeling of comfort that resembles knowing?
To thinking about all there is to say at 87 miles per hour, but saying nothing because every word means so much more than you could possibly think about or intend. To feeling like there's something you'd like to say, to feeling like there's something you should say to express how this feels. To communicate concretely.
To wanting things to be perfect, but having only imperfect examples to draw from.
Actions are one thing, but how do you form words that say "i'm starting to care about you" without fear or need or the "now what?" of expectation?