I have so many tears in my eyes right now... yes, I am actually a little bit crying.
For me one sentence always pops up when I think about Glasshipping and how Nocturn feels about Youma:
“After all these years of loneliness and fear I haven’t found someone I want to die for. Someone found me for who I want to live for.”
I wanted to capture this feeling in this page without letting Nocturn saying it, because that’s more his feelings... his feelings towards Youma.
Normally I am against the thought that someone should live for another person - one should foremost live because of oneself and find reason enough without relying just on one person... but in Nocturns case it is just this. Youma gave Nocturn the will the live - to see that living is better then dying. That it is better to spend every minute alive, living, instead of planning ones own death. He took his fear away and together they fought against their lonelyness. Youma enriched Nocturns life and Nocturn enriched Youmas.
Fuck guys, I am really crying like a little child right now. That’s my OTP. That’s what only the one and only OTP can do to you and your feelings. I love these two so much. So endlessly much. How they enrich the other, how they make each other a better person, how they enrich their lives and horizons. Both are problemchilds, both are sinners with much blood on their hands, both filled with sadness, but together they find happiness and love - in their own chaotic way.
I have loved these two and their special relationship so many years already. Hidden and unknown for myself and in the open... and I am sure that I will love them many years more.