if only I were brave and unafraid
1. "I cheated on you. I didn't mean for you to ever find out, but I dont want to hide a part of myself anymore. I dont want to be so filled with things I could never tell anyone. I want to be free of these thoughts that haunt me... I made a choice and I kissed other people. Drunk, sober, boy, girl, does that matter. I did it. I kissed them all. And what's worse is I loved them too.¨
2. ¨I keep telling myself that I love you. I love you and you love me, but I am just trying to put on these blinders to whats real. You dont know how to love anyone. You dont know how to be unselfish or how to put anyone before yourself. Thats okay, I guess, but to say you love me too is wrong. I wanted you to love me so badly though, so I did the same thing. I kept spitting out these words without realizing the gravity that held the meaning to what I was saying. Forgive me.¨
3. ¨I think I am better off on my own. I dont do this to make you feel badly, I just would rather things be this way instead... Im not good with another.¨
4. ¨ I have a track record of being a terrible person, may it only come in bits and pieces but still they add up and Im not a pretty picture.¨
5. ¨Just go."
6. ¨ If you don't love me then leave me be. Or in the words of Edgar Allen Poe ¨ Leave my loneliness unbroken.¨And even if you do love me, don't.