#now 2015

[likeanewtattoo]

[nuzzilbumps]

I haven't taken a shit since last year

[tinyfishbigpond]

A Long Year

2014 was a crazy year for me. A roller coaster ride. I fell in love, fell out of love, got my heart broken and put back together more times than I can count until I finally put it back together myself. I lost friends but gained some too. Some friendships were built even stronger than ever before. I found out I was depressed and had anxiety. I almost hurt myself and/or killed myself many times but I didn't and I got help for it. I have developed an odd eating pattern which I don't even know what is wrong with that yet. But I have gained a therapist where I can go and get help, even though for months I denied wanting to see one. I loved and hated this year. It was a mentally hard year for me, it broke me down until I became what I am not: someone who constantly feels scared, sad, and alone. But 2015 is a fresh start. A time where I can continue my journey to self-love and acceptance. That's my main goal. Of course I have the same goal I have had every year, which is to get a boyfriend, but now I have a bigger standard. Someone who isn't afraid to be with me at my worst and be okay with the parts of me that are far from okay. But I also just have to love myself, and that's what I'm aiming for. 2014 led me to rock bottom, so 2015 can only go up from here

[indequate]

Wow I just realised this is the THIRD TIME IN A ROW IM SPENDING NEW YEARS EVE ALL ALONE yey me. Yey. Wohoo. Well not quite alone actually my laptop is with me, like always <33333