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Fury: What is a word/phrase that you dread to hear?

"Go away" always seemed like a harsh phrase.

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Took me long enough, but hey.

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Gonna stay away from my roleplay blogs for a bit. College starts next week and I went to the doctor's today to see about getting assessed for Autism and Aspergers. Mum did something incredibly stupid that I will put under a cut but I'm just letting my roleplay partners from my Prussia, Mindfang and Roxy blogs know that I'm stepping back for a bit cause I'm upset and stressed and pissed off.

I had my doctor's appointment for Austism assessment today. I've jsut got home from it actually. Mum was the biggest bitch in the civilised world. Cause you know what she did?! She lost her temper! She lost at her temper at the very nice doctor! All because the doctor was actually agreeing with me that maybe Mum was worrying a little too much about the fact that I'm not as independent as she would like. I can fucking cook, I can fucking clean, I know how to use the oven and the washing machine and the dishwasher and I can handwash things But no! Mum gets annoyed and tries to walk off before the doctor has finished speaking! "Oh I've had a bad night sleep" No, fuck you. You're just upset that I'm not the perfect responsible first born child you wanted. You wanted a perfect little child that could raise a giant middle finger at Grandad because if I were perfect, you wouldn't have to be bossy and picky about everything like Grandad was with you! And she got annoyed at me because I wasn't remembering small meaningless incidents from over a year ago! Who remembers things from a year ago?! I drink day old water from time to time but even I know that stale food is a bad idea! Where the fuck did she get that from?! And then the doctor had to ask MUm to step outside because she got pissy. And the doctor had to quietly ask me if I felt supported. I said yes and that Mum does her best. You know what I wanted to say? I only feel supported when I do something normal that makes Mum happy. When I come back from giving out CVs or I finish applying for a job or I spend hours cleaning the house. That's when Mum says thank you and gets happy and that's when I feel supported. Because I know that she's happy that I can be normal and independent. Hell the only reason I'm going through with this shit is to make her stop worrying! It's early in the morning and I'm supposed to be in college later this afternoon to enroll for my second year... I don't need to be stressed this early in the morning.