#nuroxic

[hbunot]

Thank you for the advice. Im usually pretty good about what I eat & How active I am. I just can't seem to lose weight, I only gain it. And some days are harder than others. It doesn't make any sense to me, I definitely didn't mean to make you angry):

Just don't give up on yourself babe! you can do it! losing weight is hard in the beginning but once you start losing, you lose it quick!

and I know, it just upsets me when people put themselves down for something they can change if they put enough effort into it. 

[hbunot]

I want to be thin.. im disgusting . How do you suggest I lose weight? And quickly. I have three weeks til disney.. and that means fitting my disgusting thighs into shorts.. and showing my ugly arms in a tank top..

Okay first of all you are far from disgusting and it honestly makes me so damn angry when I get messages like this. If you're not happy with your body, which i don't understand why, then just do something about it the healthy way instead of putting yourself down constantly. Eat right and exercise in moderation is all I have to tell you.

[anti-nic]

So I had to go to the clinic today.

After going to Raw last night with all of my recent heart problems I was having trouble today. So, my cardiologist's office sent me to a clinic Im okay. My heart rate was at 94 and spiked to 101-103 a couple times. My ekg showed up alright. the clinic said that I could try increasing my protein intake. They said that they think i'll find out whatevers wrong from the titl table test when I have it done. The doctor there said that if it doesn't go away or that if I feel worse, then I should go to the ER where they will do another Echo on my heart. Lord. I knew wrestling would be the death of me.

[ouijafrnk]

Hair pulling, bititng, being pinned down, and being on my hands and knees. :P

Hair Pullinggo away | no | rather not | I dunno | I guess | sure | yes | FUCK yes | oh god you don’t even know | right here, right now

Biting

 go away | no | rather not | I dunno | I guess | sure | yes | FUCK yes | oh god you don’t even know | right here, right nowBeing Pinned Down

 go away | no | rather not | I dunno | I guess | sure | yes | FUCK yes | oh god you don’t even know | right here, right now

Being on Hands and Knees

go away | no | rather not | I dunno | I guess | sure | yes | FUCK yes | oh god you don’t even know | right here, right now

Thanks darling! (: <3

[anti-nic]

Why can't I stop fucking shaking, what the hell is wrong with me? Why do I feel so broken and alone? I sound pathetic. I am pathetic. I am a piece of shit. I'm no good. I really don't deserve the people who love me. They could find so much better. My sister looks up to me, cherishes me, and what am I? A fuck up. it's her. I keep it away from  her, I do my best to. I hurt her once, I can't do it again. I hold it all in to protect them. This my burden to carry. No one else's. My head is such a fucking mess. All of the tangled thoughts. It's hell to try and figure them all out. I just want to give up. Sometimes I don't want to be alive. I can't, and I know that. I just want it to stop.

[anti-nic]

Death seems so peaceful

[anti-nic]

Baby come kiss me.

[anti-nic]

I reach out my hand for help and no one seems to be there. My head is underwater and my hand will slowly slip below, as they just all point and stare.. Laughing and mocking me. The thing is. It's all in my head. Every single laugh, every whisper, It's all in my fucking head. I can't escape. [www.nuroxic.tumblr.com ]