#obscenicon

[vincestsanji]

@obscenicon dodging my demands for it to stop harassing and hating on me just for being myself. Why? When will it end?

[juney-blues]

jumps and claps. hapy britdhay?!!!!'

claps and jumps! thank you thank you!

[hzrnvm]

wait. hzrn is pronounced heaven. How

well first thing you gotta put yourself in the muncee brain. im always thinking about phonemes and sounds in terms of their properties. nondeliberately, it's just how i perceive them. so looking at HZRN and HEAVEN, when i look at them i see "hey! H and N are already at the end of both. and Z and V are both voiced fricatives, they're two of english's most front ones, so they're similar. and the first vowel /ɛ/ in HEAVEN is close to the first vowel /ɪ/ in the common pronunciation of HZRN, and the second value /ǝ/ (or nothing and the /n/ is syllabic) isn't far from the /ɚ/, either."

and so all that happened subconsciously in my mind, and i looked at my brain and said "dope". and the word heaven was closely tied to a lot of sentimental and emotional things ("Heaven" by Talking Heads [stop making sense version specifically], the phrase "Heaven is other person", other stuff) in my mind anyways so i'm naturally more open to it.

and so i was like "hey i invented the word (cough cough) hzrn. i can do whatever i want with it! it's mine! it's a noun, a verb, an adjective, an adverb, and it all means ME!" so i gave it the pronunciation "heaven".

some retrospective things that helped solidify my decision were that 1. heaven is a totally cool and heard-of name for a woman. if this sticks when it comes to people talking to/about me irl i could totally jump to "heaven" spelled like "heaven" as a name. i could even get it changed! and 2. i remembered that i used to go by "The World" when i was 13. now this was because i was annoying about jjba, but i also did like it as a poetic meaning. and now it's even MORE poetic. HE was the world, and I'M heaven! it's so perfect! it's the perfect thing!

i love it so much really. also makes my full internet name into 3 trochees, rather than one iamb and 2 trochees. i like that.