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This is Gold-E, short for Golden Eagle! He belongs to my platonic partner and is named after their favorite coffee drink.

Oooh, what a dapper young gentleman! He looks very boopable! I love his nose! 😍

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Here is my child Squid Ink Pasta helping with laundry! A few more pet pictures incoming, dogs and cats~ Do you like snakes? I also have one of those.

Ooh, Squid Ink Pasta is such a good name! What an adorable name for an adorable little one!

And yes, snakes are always welcome! What kind do you have?

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Also about your ocs. How does Sam’s family react when he goes from a human doctor to an animal doctor? Do his parents support his dreams? What about grandparents, especially the Korean side?Do they try to push him to marry rich? I love that he’s a mixed Eastern Asian trans man. Nice to see characters I can point at and go “he’s just like me!”

Oh boy. His family wasn't really enthusiastic about it, but tried being polite, for the most part, at least publicly. When he made the decision not to pursue med school, he'd already been accepted, which made some waves in the family; on his mom's side (the mixed-white side that he's not as close to), they were pretty like. eh. about it, "good for you, I guess? Are you sure you really want to do that?" sort of reaction, but his Korean family was really rather upset with the decision, particularly his grandparents. He has a really tense relationship with his grandma, and she had a lot of opinions about his switching tacks, especially since she saw it as a downgrade socially as well as monetarily. She's always wanted to ultimately support him into a position of "good Korean granddaughter" and being a medical doctor is the better choice before settling down and being a home-maker. (She very much disregards that he's a gay trans man.)

His brother took it to mean that Sam "can't hack it in a real job", which always rankles him, though his sister kinda glossed over the whole thing in favor of "well, now you can provide me cute animal pics whenever I want, right?" His dad hadn't verbalized his opinion on the matter much, other than to remark that vet school is cheaper than med school, so Sam just took that to be a neutral opinion.

The only person whose feedback he really wanted was his mother's, and he and she are rather estranged. They haven't talked much since the divorce back when Sam was in high school, but his change of life plans was something they talked about and she basically said, "if it doesn't serve you, don't serve it." He felt better about things after that. They're not close, by any means, and he still does carry some resentment towards her about the divorce and the fallout and her choices after that, but he was glad she supported his decision.

(also, as a mixed Korean-American trans masc person: right! I find a lot of myself in Sam. Trying not to make the family dynamics, like, cliche, but also stay true to some of my experiences and feelings. It's, uh. Interesting, to say the least.)

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Ask me about my OCs from my WIP trans/cis MM romance novel!

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6,8,24 for Sam

3,10,15 for Regan

Thanks for your questions! They were fun to think about!

6, 8, 24 for Sam:

6: How do they behave around animals?

Sam loves animals! He's a vet tech and has been for years, and volunteers at a local cat cafe. He's definitely more partial to cats, but likes other animals, too. Sam's a little iffy about snakes and other reptiles, and isn't very experienced with amphibians, but he's not against them, per se. He keeps small cans of dog and cat food in his backpack, just in case he sees a stray somewhere. 

8: How do they react when someone cries around them?

He's kind, but is known to be kind of aloof. If it's someone he knows, he's much more open, but he grew up kind of distancing himself from people emotionally so it's been a journey opening himself up to folks. On the whole he's okay and emotionally present, but distress and crying makes him uncomfortable, and that in turn makes him freeze. 

24: What's their relationship with pain? Do they tolerate it well, hide it, or even enjoy it?

Physical pain? Oh, he's a bit of a baby about it, but used to it. He's an amateur athlete and likes to bike a lot, and figures he can't have the enjoyment of the sport without the drawback of the soreness. He'll lightheartedly bitch about it, though. Emotional pain? Oh, he wants to bottle that up tight. He's been going to therapy somewhat regularly for years, but still has the immediate instinct of running and hiding when something hurts his heart or feelings. 

3, 10, 15 for Regan:

3: What's their favorite spot in the world?

His favorite spot is sitting at his late grandmother's dinner table, looking into the kitchen while she cooks. Regan has many beloved memories of watching her prepare meals for the family over the years, her kitchen full of years of fantastic smells wafting up from myriad pans and tastes stolen from various pots. She taught him how to cook, but that wasn't what he liked most about this; he just liked watching how she navigated her small space to create something beautiful. 

10: What's a habit they inherited from someone else? Do they notice they do it? 

He mutters in a sort of half-English, half-Italian mix when he's either not focused on anything in particular (like, when he's kinda absentminded) or really focused on something specific (when he's not focusing on anything else). He inherited this from his Mom, who speaks conversational but not quite fluent Italian. 

15: What kind of affection are they bad at receiving?

He's bad at receiving verbal affection. He brushes it off as just, like, fluff? Like, "oh, of course you'd say that, people just say things like that to folks they like." He's much more an action-oriented type of guy. Words are pretty, but in the end, they're just words, and he's been disappointed too many times to be able to put a ton of stock in them. 

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Hi, I hope you're having an okay month so far. I was wondering if you would be willing to reblog my pinned post again? If not I understand completely. Thank you for your time and kindness and I hope you have a really good week.

God luck! May many blessings come your way!

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Hi there, I'm sorry for asking again but I was wondering if you would be willing to reblog my pinned post again? If not I understand completely I really do. Thank you so very much for your kindness and understanding. Have a really nice month. 💜

May many blessings and much money come your way!

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Hi again. I hope I'm not a bother but I was wondering if you could reblog my pinned post again please n thankyou? But if not I understand completely. Thank you so very much for your kindness❣

Good luck! May blessings and a fuckin break come your way!

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Hello again, I missed you so much!!!

Right now, to be honest, things aren't going so well. I mean, I spent half of January in the dispensary, It was a bit of an experience, but I thought I was getting better, and then on Friday it suddenly got even worse(⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) I don't know what to do, to be honest

I've heard that February is a tough month, but for me, it's actually the calmest month of the year, with no illnesses raging, although this time something went wrong. Are you okay, right?

Otherwise, everything's fine! I celebrated the New Year with my family, it was quite fun, and I finally tried out some recipes I'd been putting off for a long time. Did you know that grapes can be delicious when paired with a rather salty salad? In general, everything went smoothly. And how did you celebrate, if you celebrated at all? I hope you at least had a good rest, right?

Now I'm going back to college and taking exams. I've already taken three exams, all of which I passed successfully. There's just one more tough one left, and then I can breathe a sigh of relief

Unfortunately, I didn't get to play the games as much as I wanted because of all the fuss. But I recently downloaded Hollow Knight! After the exams, I think I'll expand my horizons, hahaha

How are you doing? You're still writing, right? Have you been thinking of anything new lately? Maybe something about Rionna? Or about someone else

I'd love to hear it if you're not too busy with work!!!

I'm sorry it took me so long to reply to your message! I missed you, too, friend. Thank you for dropping by. <3

What is a dispensary in your part of the world? It sounds like a hospital? Are you doing okay? Has anything gotten better? I hope so.

I'm glad to hear that February is calm for you! This month has been pretty hectic for me, mostly because of work. We have been working through a periodic audit of various records and files from the state government and a federal agency that oversees and works in our industry, so it's been kinda balls-to-the-wall for everyone in the company management. I'm an office assistant to the Operations DIrector, so I've been helping reasonably closely on doing reports and working on various spreadsheets and databases, along with general clerical work and the hands-on work I do in the field. It's a great job, and I love the work I do, but this month and next month are suuuuuper busy for the ol' brain bandwidth. It's good, though. Last time we had an audit was three years ago because both the government and agency were happy with what they found in our records, and we're confident that we'll have a good assessment this year, too. I may have mentioned this all, haha. It's just been on everyone's brains at work, and has been of utmost importance.

I'm not particularly superstitious, but I kinda like that February is a completely even month, calendar-wise. I feel like that's a good sign, or at least kinda auspicious. I don't know why I get that feeling, but it's just kinda a vibe I get. It's completely arbitrary, and maybe a little silly, but the calendar falling the way it does just feels like good luck.

Happy very late New Year! I'm glad you had a fun celebration. Do you do anything specific, any yearly traditions? I don't do much, I just try to watch Fiddler on the Roof every year on New Year's Day and I try to catch the sunrise. I'm not successful every year, but I count the effort as a net positive, anyway. What kind of recipes did you try out, and how'd they go? I've heard of grapes in salads; it seems to be a popular thing here in some areas of the USA, but I never tried it. I'm really picky about fruits because I have sensory processing disorder (yay, suspected autism and diagnosed adhd), so I'm always leery of fruits. They have to be just the right texture, firmness, smell, etc. before I can eat them. Like bananas! I don't know if you're a banana enjoyer, but I like 'em, but only when they're pretty ripe, like super yellow with some light brown freckles. The starches break down into sugars, so they're softer and sweeter, and they smell nicer, more banana-y. With grapes, they have to be super firm and crisp, and seedless, and either black grapes or red. I'm not a fan of green ones, and those seem to be commonly used in salads here.

Glad to hear about those three exams! Congratulations! How was your last one? Hopefully it went just as well. College was hard for me, even though I really like learning. I never really got the hang of actually buckling down and studying back in earlier grades, because it just kinda came natural to me, if that makes sense? But then in college things got difficult and I couldn't just coast through anymore. I took a break after my first year, then went back after a couple of years, but then had to quit again because I was paying out of pocket and it got too expensive. The governing board of my university kept raising tuition. Big shame, too; I was about halfway through my degree at the time, and I'm super mad about it. I'm doing stuff now to learn more maths and stuff as an adult, since that was a super hard subject for me, and it's actually coming easier now. Maybe it's because I've grown up, maybe it's because the pressure to do well and pass the class is no longer there, I'm not sure. I'm just appreciative for it. I've always been intimidated by maths, even though there are some subjects in it that I'm really good at.

I'm so excited that you downloaded Hollow Knight! Sucks that you didn't get to play much in January because of your health and all that, but I hope you've been able to take time to relax now that your exams are over and things are hopefully more stable for you. Have you played HK yet? If you ever wanna talk about it, I always love to talk about it! It's always on my mind lately. I beat it not too long ago for my first playthrough and now I'm onto the sequel, Silksong. I intend to go back to Hollow Knight for a second playthrough at some point, though; there are multiple endings you can achieve in both games based on what you do and choose throughout your playthrough, and I hope to achieve a different ending the next time.

I am writing again, actually! You may have seen my writing updates lately, but I'm working on an original story. It's held my attention in a huge way for the last week, and I've written over 14k words already. It's a romance between a trans man and a cis man, and it's just been really beautiful to write so far. Kinda cathartic? I haven't been this excited to write something original, or even something at all, in so long. It's kinda eating my brain at the moment, what little is left after worrying about work. I haven't even played my video game since I started it!

Sorry for this huge novel of an answer, lol. I'm just glad I saw your message. I didn't get the notification that you'd sent something in! If you ever want to come off anon, my direct messages are open! :)