lionheartdct said: abalone!
what kind of situations compromise my muse emotionally?
Every situation. Every situation compromises him emotionally. Eren lives in a perpetual compromise of his emotions. He is a confused emotional curious hormonal teenage boy who questions absolutely everything and feels absolutely everything.
I wanna say I’m exaggerating, but for the most part I’m not h ah... But anyway, I think the types of situations that really get to him the most are ones that, A: have to do with him putting other people’s lives on the line, B: dealing with hurt or betrayal from a friend or someone he trusted, or C: losing someone he cares about to a murder (be it a person or a titan).
For instance, when he’s put into a situation where people are putting their lives at risk for HIS sake he becomes incredibly guilty, and has conflicting emotions that battle over which deems superior, often including the tie between worthiness and unworthiness. There is something about him that he knows is unworthy but his mind also tries to cope with this idea, especially using the whole ‘Special Person’ complex that makes him worthy, because it makes him special and someone who cannot be replaced. It excuses all the deaths caused by things done for him or things that he’s done.
When dealing with betrayal, we see this several times. We see him first with Annie and he even goes as far to not believe it even after witnessing her transformation into the female titan before his very eyes. He chooses not to believe that reality, and continue in the one that he’s made up in his head. So, that’s one of his methods, is creating an alternate reality to escape to, even if for a little while as it hurts too much to truly accept. The second time is involving Reiner and Bertolt, and you see most of his rage sort of centered toward Reiner because Reiner is the more dominant in the action-taking between the two of them, and Reiner is the one who Eren looked up to, wanted to be like, and trusted more out of the two, despite trusting both of them anyway. That’s not excluding his reactions to Bertolt he was equally angry with him as well, but it was targeted toward Reiner because he let it. In any case, he dealt with it in a very brash manner, firstly deciding he was going to get proper information, interrogate them without losing his cool and understand the details to report to superiors later on, but this fails because his emotions overrun him and loses control. He bursts into a childish fit of rage and violent behavior, threatening the two of them repeatedly with words and actions alike, tossing any insult he could think of before losing all of his energy and passing out.
The third situation previously mentioned is when he loses someone he loves/cares about. In the beginning, Eren is seen not necessarily sad, but instead acting out in fits of rage. Instead of taking proper time to grieve, he creates a target to blame, to become angry at, and seek revenge from because that is easier than letting himself be sad, letting him be ‘weak.’ Such actions are present after witnessing the death of his mom, and again after witnessing the death of Thomas. He acts with anger, with impulse, with the fear of sadness. Later, after the death of the Special Ops Squad he is seen truly grieving, sobbing silently into his sleeve as he is aware this one was his fault, or that’s what he thinks. The deaths previous to this were of situations in which he couldn’t help, so he probably would have reacted in a fit of vengeance (which he later does after his grieving session upon seeing the Female Titan again, after realizing it was Annie) if he couldn’t help it. It’s almost as if he was more upset that could have done something different. The disappointment in himself for not being able to protect his Squadmates or even himself made him out to be a failure, knowing he had to be saved and he let them be killed when they didn’t have to be. Another conflicting emotion, given he may deem it selfish, crying over his lacking ability and disappointment in himself than their deaths, instead of grieving solely over their deaths.
