May 31, 2023
"I know its hard Pixxie, but she's waiting for you... We need you. I need you Ash."
...What could I be needed for anymore? It's my fault and you know it...I fucked everything up...again..I can't do anything right by anyone..I thought..I was doing the right thing trying to stop it from happening...and look where it got me...look where it got all of us...she...she wouldn't have looked at me like that...if she didn't mean that...she told me herself....she's...she's dead...and I killed her...it's...my fault...
I couldn't stop it from happening..and I wasn't strong enough to prevent becoming this...I wasn't strong enough to gain control...and she suffered...it's all my fault...I couldn't get to her..and it's my fault...