#oh yee

[sackof-stims]

me whenever i make a stimboard:

[soupysouptime]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Haikyuu!! Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Bokuto Koutarou/Kuroo Tetsurou Characters: Bokuto Koutarou, Kuroo Tetsurou Additional Tags: Smut, Just Sex, Bromance, Comedy, Shameless Smut, Drinking Summary:

Sexual tension between Kuroo and Bokuto became unbearable, so they did something about it.

Or

Is there a word like bromance but for sex?

[tamiddyinyourcity]

11:40pm.

I may have a stroke and die if I keep this up. Not entirely my own fault, though.

Thursday, April 2nd of 2020.

So before 10am tomorrow, I must:

Clean all the breadcrumbs or napkins from my bed

......

I thought the list was longer.

I must be putting too many loads onto myself.

I signed up for one too many free online courses when I hardly have an easy time getting out of bed in the mornings. (Since I stay up too late, and feel guilt over not being productive past 2am, lol.)

Had several rude awakenings recently, both the day my mom came into my room to announce she was moving out, and today when my mom burst in before noon to get a head start on throwing shit out. (YOU CAN'T JUST BURST INTO MY ROOM SUPER EARLY THE DAY BEFORE YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD COME, MOTHER.)

And she did other annoying shit, but all I can say is, "She's a stupid fucking control freak that gets off on feeling like she has some power over me."

What a bitch. :)

Anyway, it's 11:57pm.

I'm mainly trying to figure out how to balance cleaning, helping Eli out, doing my coursework without instantly dropping out due to exhaustion and just a weak attention span these days... and more.

Niggas annoy me.

I'll just take things slow......

For now, just spray the bed and shake out those crumbs. Whatever I can't control, I don't need to worry about.

And if that fuckass slut decides to go through my drawers or dump shit everywhere, then it will solidify me moving the absolute fuck out. :)

She better not act a fucking clown. My violent thoughts are coming back, and a lot of things have my nerves up. So the nihilistic urge to break the smug jaw off of that yellowbone hoe's face with a club is always in the back of my head, and every action she takes to go out of her way to spite me brings me closee to turning fantasy into a reality.

With that said, I've been watching too many "Kill Count" videos.

Plus, the documentary Tiger King was also kinda shocking. I didn't expect the scene where a guy planned a murder, or the woman who fed her husband to the tigers....

I should avoid "pro-revenge-murder" content, till I reach a happier headspace.

.......

I shouldn't worry so much.

So much has me on edge. How much I've spent on food delivery. The bumfuck economy. The government. And seeing how boring talk shows are when they are just nationwide streamed skype calls.

Yikes. :)

But, manifesting great shit:

My mother's actions do not affect me, hurt me, or harm me.

My mother's treatment is a projection od her own insecurities.

Life is full of light and abundance.

I desire fresh fruit and peaceful spaces in my household for me to reside in, safely and comfortably.

I desire walls lined with my artwork, scripts, and photographs to inspire me every single day of my life.

I desire lit candles, incense, and perfume to make my room the amazingly radiant space I'd desire for myself.

Clean walls, fresh smells, and good sleep is ahead of me.

God bless and amen.

That does help me feel better.

.....

I just felt a specific uterus cramp.

Has that much time passed already? Dear gosh....

Also, I'm listening to BMO!

I'm not sad! Or, not until I told myself, "Oh look!!!! You're listening to the Break Me Off song!! And not thinking about that time you cried watching Uncut Gems since you still wanted to fu--" Do I need to write the rest? Yall can find that for yourself.

I miss him a little, but not so much these days. Just the little things, like how his eyes flashed blue when he looked at me from the corner of his eye, or the smirk/grin he did when he was open about feeling happy, and genuinely wanted to express it.

Where did I put those earrings he gave me? The abalone shell ones. I don't think of him, they're just a sweet story to remember, and I like that he got them for me.

He's probably doing fine.

I don't feel the need to comment on how to feel about that.

Anyways.

....

12:30am.

I'm still unsure of how Rowan sees me.

He's cute as hell but like..... I don't know, fam.

I'm pretty damn bad at the whole "distance yourself from people you're not sure even like you" shit.

Hell, why else do you think I kept seeing my ex? If it was as easy as blocking a number or getting a painting back, a bitch would've been happy, yknow? And boy, look at how that bit me hard in the ass.

Whatever.

......

I just enjoy the fellow's company.

I think he usually messages me first when he thinks I'm awake, just to check in. He knows this quarantine shit is particularly bad.

A pretty nice dude. Too bad the UK is ridiculously far. I would've BEEN cuffed if that weren't the case.

Oh well.

12:37am. I better go to sleep soon.

Also, I may or may not curse out Patrick #1. I'm a lot more hotheaded lately? Some of it is just a classic case of These Bitches Are Idiotic, and other times its My Ego Is Hurt And Anger Covers Up The Wounds.

Also, Azalea is a whore. If you're reading this, whore, drink some fucking water and take a few laps every time you consider reading my page again. Do some healthy shit, dumb whore.

Anyways, I am tired and easily angered recently.

Gonna force myself to sleep soon.

High stress you know?

Peace out.

[artsycooky13]

Lord of the universe~

[princecursed]

yuki HATES being touched. unless you are a person he knows and can trust, he will basically avoid any physical contact if he can. he will always keep a distance between him and another person. he doesn’t try to make it too obvious and he doesn’t mind touching others. it is when others touch him is when he has problems with it.

[kittanimo]

Art trade with @xandrastefmary

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To the Moon and Back

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