heyyy so i have some realizations poppin’ up at 12am & i just wanna let it all out here...as i always do. um, it’s about social media. dati kase when i think about deactivating my facebook account, i always thought na baka magiging boring yung life ko and tbh it’s not just that dahil as much as i hate to say it, there were really times in my life that i liked to show off things to people online-- esp showing off something that would make other people (esp those who personally knows me) that im living the best in this world. i was pressured to be socially accepted. it even got me to the point where i linked my self-esteem to the interaction i received & it isn’t healthy, but matagal na akong natuto. i had my lessons and i am still learning on it up to this day.
anyway, i know that what we share online or once something is out in the internet, it will be more or less be there forever. i get that and i wish i have known it before! i wish i could have been more private about my life. ngayon na i’ve been out from facebook for almost a year (tapos nakaya ko naman) and not obligating myself to be here on Tumblr anymore & also not depending my life’s happiness in social media, i’m honestly getting the most in life. like, learning to love myself even more w/out comparing myself to others and you know, being genuinely happy with the people that matters the most and most importantly, being able to restore the relationship that i have with people who have really seen my worth as a person. and i guess to me, that’s what living really is.
