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Today I got to see Sam Tsui perform live and it was so incredible and such an amazing experience. I’ve been watching him for 4 years after an old crush of mine introduced his music to me. He’s talented af and also from Philly like me!!!

He’s also gay/bi/man/likes men (idk) and him and his husband and him singing together made my night. Ever since he came out I’ve definitely been able to be more comfortable in my Own sexuality.

It was also my first time seeing a live performance of a musician I love and THAT WAS SUCH A COOL EXPERIENCE WHY CANT I DO THIS MORE??

everything about tonight was wonderful.

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One of the lines that struck me the most in Love, Simon was when Leah said “Do you ever feel like you’re on the outside looking in?”

UGH YES LEAH AND YES SIMON FOR FEELING LIKE THAT TOO

it’s like you’re always there but you never feel there

Youre always feeling like an observant

Anyway just thoughts about the BEST MOVIE EVER

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Tyler Rugge is a gem

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Jesus saying "boyfriends" on The Walking Dead MADE ME SO HAPPY ASDFGHJKL

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feelings suck.

so you know the scene in Love Simon where Leah asks Simon if he has ever felt like he’s on the outside looking in? I feel that so hard sometimes. like I know I’m living my life and I’m so lucky to be living that life and I’m surrounded by people I love and I know all these things buts just all like i am watching my own life like I’m watching a movie.

And maybe I’m in the feels bc the guy I like has a boyfriend now and like idk y’all it just seems SO STUPID but I can’t ignore my feelings and my feelings of how this sucks. And idk. I guess i will see how I feel in the morning. Been messing around with my social media to try and set it the way I like it. Also I think I’m gonna start YouTube again. I feel reinspired.

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Happy Canada Day! 🇨🇦

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I’ve like never really talked about this bc I don’t have a reason to but I can’t believe for many years I doubted myself. Thinking I was a bad friend just bc some people didn’t really my true heart. It’s like I know how I am and I know how much I care about the people in my life and just people in general.

I had a friend a few years ago get really drunk at an event. He was dancing and someone hit him in the nose and he started bleeding. No one would do anything so I had to get him to the bathroom to stop the nosebleed. He was so drunk he could barely walk. Eventually I got a taxi (lol this was before Uber existed) and was able to carry him home to our friends who took care of him from there.

I don’t ever bring this up bc why would I? But like I need to stop doubting who I am and doubting the goodness and kindness in my heart just bc of what I perceive others things about me. I am a good person and I love my friends dearly. Self-doubt is a bitch.

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the worst part of being a Leo (me just saying this proves how Leo I am) is oversharing...like sometimes you just meet someone and all of a sudden they know about your parents’ divorce and how you feel about it.

and ugh sometimes i just want to move thru the universe with more eloquence and with more of a mystery to people around me ya feel?

like radically private and only sharing personal things with those i really care about ...

and i’m getting there. trying to reign myself in and be a better me has been what 2019 has been all about. learning a lot, and growing a lot too