»YOU HAVE 1 UNREAD MESSAGE FROM @girlrued .
“ i’ll give you ten thousand reasons to not let me go . ”
he grinds his teeth , just a little . the sound of her voice , the sadness , the desperation . it’s whack and he hates it . she’s been shattered by someone and he’s not the right guy to put the pieces back together but he’s willing and he doesn’t mind a few cuts from the process . ❝i don’t need ten thousand. i just need one. i need to know i’m not just some guy you fuck when you’re sad - or bored - or whatever ‘phelia.❞ it hurts. it hurts worse than if he’d actually stuck a knife in his gut . the admittance that maybe , just maybe , he’s being used and there’s a type of grief in his chest, he’s never quite gotten used to . nice guys finish last , you stupid washed up virgin . that’s what it feels like , what it reminds him of . high school bullies and pretty girls from before her , he hears their voices plain as day . haunting him . ❝i just need to know, this isn’t a game or something. i’m - i’m not like those other dudes. i’m - i’m sensitive. and i’m not ashamed to admit that i don’t wanna get my heart broken if you’re just using me for a good time. just one. i just need one reason to stay.❞ that you want me. really want me.