#old channels

[madonnanera]

They speak of fantasy as if it’s wrong. They call it escapism. But rather it’s a way of return. Going back to our truest. Following things that resemble our womb. Comfort. Warmth. Safety.

[jackmarkgaming]

So Mark was live on his old channel again with his mom

Why would he decide to do it  on his old channel?

The old channel that he was using while he lived with his mom.

Nostalgia? OR IS THIS SOME WEIRD “TIME IS BROKEN” THING??

[th3guy0n3]

[madonnanera]

Play with me...

Is it not enough to sit and explore?

To use your imagination?

Must you seek a definition and limitation to everything?

Why is it so difficult for you to be fluid?

I don’t move like that.

That is not the nature of who you are.

You are not rigid and strict. Your spirituality does not come on a box, nor paired with semi colons and comas!

Those are man-made. Human ideologies.

Human perverses. Low nature of understanding all that you are.

You are the cosmos. You are chaos and order.

You created order.

But even then not in the suffocating distinction that humans like to call order.

Do you even know what it means to be chaotic? To be this “chaos being”? Do you even know what that means or do you take it on for truth because you heard a couple other people say the word.

Have you even tried to define it for yourself? Does it even make sense to you?

Where is the you that created her own words and worlds. Her own nonsense. Her own fantasies and truths. How dare you oblige by things you’ve only “heard” and were told. That is not the nature of who you are.

That rigidness is made to provoke your own school of thought. Your own fluidity in how you choose to create your self and your universes.

Does being a chaos being make sense to you? Do you believe that in the beginning there was chaos?

Or do you believe in the beginning there was stillness?

The world in between chaos and order.

Creation and Death.

Have you ever thought that your original origin is not of chaos but of meditation?

Of reflection? The moments of sitting outside at night looking at the stars smoking a cigarette?

Why don’t you see yourself as the spaces in between?

Perhaps the more you read and see you’ll understand.

But someone else wrote those. Why can’t you come up with your own understanding yourself? And feel your way through? Explore your mind. Does saying you’re a chaos being feel good to you?

You are primal energy yes. However primal energy isn’t as it has been described by man as being boundless and savaged. Your original state is not slugs of this realm or any.

The darkness is not chaos. The darkness is the holder of chaos.

The potential for chaos.

What goes near the black hole is in turmoil, but inside it is still.

You are creator and destroyer, but mostly you are still. You are all and nothing.

Doesn’t that bring you peace?

Is that not good enough for you?

But your human mind, your ego says “oh but I must be something, I must be!”

And you confuse spiritual practices as just another way to give foreplay to your ego.

Why do you want to be something so bad?

How does everything want to be demoted to something? As if that’s bigger?

Don’t you want it all?

It’s okay to say you do.

Learn to think for yourself. And define for yourself. For your spirit. For your truth. Tether between the realms of form and formless. Loving the erotic feeling of expansion and restriction.

You are in flow. You are breathing.

Everything breathes, no?

In breath, you already are.

Now ask me again? Who are you?

Learn all the parts of yourself...because they really are all the parts of yourself. There isn’t one path to follow. You can follow them all. Every time a path comes up you should follow it! Explore it! Until you don’t anymore. Take a break. And then return. Because there really isn’t anything that you aren’t that is natural in this world.

Why board yourself up and hide?

Why can’t you have it all? Doesn’t that feel more free? Why can’t you pursue all your creative inspirations?

Why think of the end, when you should be relishing at the beginning! You should be breathing life into your creations! And then flow with them until their end. Until it’s time for them to transform into something new.

How do YOU embody these archetypes?

How do YOU. Embody these forms?How does your formlessness take form in these realms?

Because the archetypes are realms. Universes within you. Personal to you. Worth exploring. How are YOU the King? How are you the Sage, or young Prince?

When will you awaken?

Explore the realms of all that you are and don’t you ever dare think “ugh this is exhausting this is too much.” You are disowning the multitudes of all that you are!

You are too much! You are a lot! You are extra! And so what?

Explore. Have fun. Explore YOUR worlds. Your causes and effects. Share and co create with others when called.

You’re all apart of something Bigger.

Explore me please. I beg of you.