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do you ever feel so overwhelmed from the love and kindness of people that there’s an actual ache in the pit of your stomach because you don’t know what you did to receive it and you don’t know how to respond and all you want to do is show them how much that means to you and how much you appreciate it and love them but you can’t even describe it in words and your anxiety just bubbles up because you don’t know what to say or do and so you do what you can but you think you did something wrong or you feel like you haven't done enough…you haven’t shown them gratitude enough and then you’re afraid they don’t know how much they actual mean to you and what that love means to you when it means everything???

no? just me? ok

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i’m going to The Amazing Tour is Not On Fire today and get to see Dan and Phil in real life and I’m so excited I’M TRASHHHH

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I think I’m just about to have the worst week in my entire existence

It’s spring break but I’ve spent every night staying up to 2-4 am working on my thesis because it’s due in 2 weeks... I got put with all these emergency projects at work that I couldn’t finish my own projects in time and have to work on those while on break but I have to finish my OWN thesis as well as get my portfoilo and business cards and just my LIFE together because I’m graduating in 2 months and I’m a complete mess...

....on top of that I’m in charge of taking 12 college kids to Taipei and Tokyo in 2 weeks and I’m afraid I’m missing something and I’m sooo nervous.... and my aunt who I was really close to who had cancer for 5 years passed away on Wednesday and I’m SO HEARTBROKEN but with all this other crap I don’t even have the emotional capacity to mourn because I don’t have...the time?? And I’m graduating with her daughter, my cousin, and so I’m trying to plan a party for us in the midst of all this chaos and 

for the past couple my grandmother wasn’t doing well, my mom flew up to Egypt to take care of her because they were worried, and I was upset because I haven’t seen my mom in 3 months and we were planning my Spring Break with fun things to do but she needed to go be with her mom so I totally understood, 

and today we get a call from her sobbing because my grandmother is in such bad shape and they’re “making her comfortable” so that means any day now and this is my GRANDMOTHER I love her to death and i just....don’t have...the emotional range for this and i’m scarily just emotionless but I know it’s because if I let it out it’s gonna all break and I feel so SELFISH for being just so broken down but I’m so tired and I feel like I’m not giving anyone or anything my 100% because I simply can’t and I’m so sad and I don’t know what to do I feel like I needed to write it 

and i’m dreading going back to school because it means the funeral and then the thesis and traveling stress and then the inevitable phone call from my mom and job applications and interviews and I want to time to just s t o p

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Thank you guys SO MUCH for all the responses! Oh my gosh, they’re perfect and exactly what I’m looking for.

The goal of my thesis is help people actively pursue a creative hobby. Our culture today has a heavy emphasis on perfection and has created this culture of fear and self-doubt that causes people to quit and give up on a creative hobby they enjoy before giving it the time to actually grow. I hope to design something to help people over the hump of starting and help actively and consistently pursue and grow in their skills.

With this in mind, and feel free to message me, can you think of anything you wish you had that could have helped you in the beginning stages of learning your hobby? (sky is the limit tbh) Can you think of anything now that could help organize the experience? What are the biggest pain points of learning/practicing a skill?

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Creative Hobbies

Friends, quick question for my senior thesis! 

My senior thesis is about encouraging people, everyone, to take part in creative hobbies they are interested in but might feel inadequate to attempt.

To those of you who are avid practicers of a creative hobby, how naturally did the skill of said hobby come to you? Not the interest in the hobby, but the actual skill/ability. Did you feel you were skilled in this field off the bat, or do you think your skill came more with practice? 

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By popular request, I started an Instagram! To kick off festivities, here's a look at a drawing you probably all knew was coming and it might destroy me in the process. 

Instagram.com/vvivaa

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Find me elsewhere!

I’m trying to organize myself better across social media. Here are all the places you can check out my arttt

Art Only Blog

Instagram

Patreon

Society6

ok cool yay

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www.patreon.com/vvivaa

Guess what everyone, I’m officially opening my patreon!

This year, as my college coursework is less demanding and my part-time job doesn’t pay nearly as much as I would like, I’ve decided this is the opportunity to finally do what I’ve wanted to do for so long and be MUCH more proactive in my art. 

I want to draw consistently, I want to push myself and create a large body of work that I’m proud of, and I want to be held accountable to draw more, draw new things, and not be afraid to show everything. 

On Patreon, you will find access to my sketchbook, WIPs, abandoned art, high quality prints, PSD files, discounted commissions and much more! If you’re interested, please check it out! 

Thanks so much for your support, everyone, whether you choose to be a patreon or not. The love I've received is amazing and overwhelming and I wouldn't be in the place I am now without all of you.  

Disclaimer: I will still post final pieces and art on this blog, that will not change!