#on updates

[mini-pretzel]

hey guys,

sorry to say but the namjoon fic won’t be up soon (as i had originally planned).

im dealing with some personal problems atm and i haven’t been able to get into the right mental space to write.

i know there’s other stories i want to work on and share with you guys

but i need some time to deal with these pressing issues

then i’ll get back to writing.

sorry to disappoint

hope you are all well

[raksh-writes]

As much as it kills me, I might need to step away from writing fics and posting/updating. Maybe for a month, maybe a few until Im done with my uni/thesis, I don't know. It seems Im straining my wrists too much even when I try to be careful 😔

More on this below the cut, because I wont hide Im kinda in a very deep depressive slump rn and it's definitely gonna come through. So, keep your own mental health in mind and skip reading this post if it might end up upseting for you. Take care ❤

For those that want to know more, here goes:

My left wrist is still bothering me. The numb-staticy feeling has weakened a bit and its mostly just my thumb now, but my wrist feels very weak overall atm. And thats definitely not a good sign 😔 I dont think its the inflammation acting up again? Its only my left wrists, when the last few times it got both, and usually it manifested with my fingers hurting in a very particular way, but who knows ;/ Maybe its just strained a lot? Its prob from typing on my phone a lot too, because the staticy feeling seems concentrated around the thumb.

I dont have my usual meds at home now but I kinda dont want to take them when Im so unsure if its actually inflammation again, so for now Im using the anti-inflammatory ointment. I started yesterday and today its the slightest bit better, so maybe its working? I hope so, at least. I'm thinking of taking another week, maybe even two, completely off from writing or anything that can strain my wrists, so my left one can heal. And I'll see how it goes.

It'll make me extremely stressed about my thesis and whatnot, but I think I'll try to talk it out with my promotor, how to proceed now. He's a great guy, so I hope he'll be understanding and help me through this. I think I might ask what would happen in cae I wouldnt be able to finish this year - would I just repeat it or how it would go. I DO want to finish it now, have this three years count and even if I wouldnt go to get a degree in next few years, at least I would hogher education, y'know. That has to count for something...

So, taking all this in consideration, fics are unfortunately what falls down the list of priorities, as much as it breaks my heart ;_; If I want to focus on finishing this and my thesis and getting it all done while my wrists are so fragile, I need to cut on other straining things. I prob wont stop writing wholly, only because it would prob make me go insane, I need the comfort my fics give me, but it'll be far less and the updates or posting would happen rare ;_;

So the next LitA update will prob happen in a month, cause 20th of April is its posting anniversary and chap 25 is mostly post-ready too, but then I have no idea. Depends on everything mentioned above.

I might switch to more of hand writing in my notebooks, maybe start on my Beauty and the Beast AU this way since its comfort fic and Im not in rush with it in any way. Maybe I'll dictate some from time to time, if I have the mental strength and fortitude for it xd But my focus needs to go into my uni and all. After all, the sooner I have big progress with it or finish it, the sooner Im "free".

It might also turn out this is just my depressive slump talking and it'll turn out to not be so bad in some time xd Who knows, for now I wanted to give y'all a heads up.

Some of y'aal will prob move on, which I totally get, thats how fandom works and I've been there;p But I hope some of y'all will still get some joy out of my fics, whenever they might come in future.

Hope y'all are weel and healthy out there, all the love 💗

[phenomenon2905]

Its sad to think how these unfinished fanfic about naruhina or any other ship, will never get that happy end in their universe.

[tarysande]

just curious, do you have any plans for future updates on any four walls? thats one of my all time favorite shakarian fics ever !! ;v;

I do! In fact, I have a whole multi-chapter Palaven arc planned for Any Four Walls; I just haven’t had the time or the focus to write it. But it’s there. In the back of my head. Lurking. Complete with cute children and families and shenanigans and… well, a bit of plot, because it was bound to happen sometime. (Also thank you!!!)

Man, I am so so sorry to all of you patient folks waiting on updates from me. It has been… well, I know it sounds like making excuses, but it’s just been such a hell of a rollercoaster year, with these huge changes I was not expecting or anticipating, and health issues that have ranged from irritating to debilitating (thankfully not too much of the latter, all of which are now pretty under control). While most of the changes have ended up being good things, it’s just thrown my free time (and my routine, my precious, precious routine) into complete and utter disarray, and fic is, sadly, the thing that suffers.

I don’t want to make any time-related promises I can’t keep (because I’ve learned the hard way that it makes everyone sad when I inevitably don’t meet my own arbitrary deadlines, and that ends up just making me too anxious to write, which raaaather defeats the purpose), but I want you to know that I still love all the stories I’m in the middle of telling, and barring some tragedy or unforeseen circumstances, if it’s marked as not-yet-complete on AO3, I am definitely planning on adding to it (and really, hopefully finishing, because I do love finishing things). <3

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