#onefondembrace

[callingstars-blog1]

every time ... i return to a fandom ... there’s char

[havfrve-blog]

ariel’s taken up the infamous hobby of   human-watching.   a pass time she’s certain her father would disapprove of.   but she finds them fascinating,   especially those that try their hand at riding the untamed waves that lap hungrily at their shores.   but this girl isn’t floating like the rest of them.   she isn’t sure   WHY.   she’d been watching her all afternoon,   watching her fall and then   RISE   again like the sun.   the mermaid watches her for a moment, as if expecting her to kick her feet and swim back up.     she notices the girl’s foot:   wedged betwixt rock and sharp coral.   the redhead does something she knows she shouldn’t:   she darts froward, pushing against the rock until nani foot can slip free and she curls her hands beneath the girl’s arms and helps drag her up until her head is above the water.

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[dyncstes-a]

falls asleep on his lap. uou

        the silence , saved from the recorded laughing soundtrack provided by the tv , makes him holds his breath . perhaps in fear , or maybe it’s in shock — hans couldn’t tell anymore . but he’s … there’s a feeling in his bones , stomach , chest , when his green eyes flicker down to her . maybe there’s even a small smile , a smile he would forever refuse to admit on having upon his pale , freckled face , because this — she — everything … it looks nearly surreal , like it’s happening elsewhere and hans is merely watching this from outside-in.

         his fingers are hesitant when it comes to rest down the lines where her hair starts on her much tanner skin , before it travels back and down and down the black river of her mane . he’s gentle and quiet , like an artist appreciating every lines he’s drawn , a sculptor crying over every bumps he’s made ——— wondering how he’s gotten here , how he manages to stay there and haven’t been named a villain yet , or someone anybody could hate or find useless and not worth the time .  ❛    thank you ,     ❜     he whispers to no one , whispers to her , and thinks a bit how maybe , he’s a little bit in love .

@onefondembrace / send hans random things — always accepting .

[dyncstes-a]

five times kissed. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

first.       it begins on the cheek.

           it’s a polite sorts of kiss ; the kind of kiss hans gives out rather flimsily when he’s at the royal gatherings or events or there’re princesses or wives of dukes who adore him and wouldn’t get enough to see him smile or compliment them on their latest jewellery . hans is used to these kind of kisses — they’re usually meaningless anyway , and hans is fine with giving a thousand of them to people who would like to feel the fifteen seconds highlights of their lives being near to a royal , rich prince ( let alone having him smooching up on you! ) . but — this kiss is also not the same in many ways .

             one , hans is almost completely certain she doesn’t know who he is . yes , she’s got a name out of him , and bits of his background that covers up pretty much where he’s from , how many brothers he’s got , and what he likes to do to pass the time . ( it’s not much though , the information about himself , because hans is never good at spilling stories ; because he is paranoid ; because what if he says too much and it backfires and he ends up giving his heart away and she crushes it ——— hans would rather die than ever see the day of that ever happening . ) but the fact remains clear : he’s still pretty much a stranger to her . 

              two , they’re not in a formal setting . the beach is just barely a block away and it’s windy and she’s just finished her shift when he’s coming over with these flowers he’s got for her . they’re beautiful , wild , and colourful — and he’s a little shy when he admits that he only bought them because he hadn’t known what to do with them , just knows that it reminded him strangely of her and , well , she could take them if she wants ? ( and hans refuses to admit that he’s sweating through his palms and he’s nervous and gosh , he might actually like her but that’s impossible because isn’t he supposed to be heartless ? and why does she even see in him , he doesn’t understand , he also doesn’t want to know but— )

                   three , she is no princess nor is she any duke’s wife — but she’s healthy and she’s radiant and she’s — she’s kind , in her own way , without being excessively fancy or expensive or speaking with this kind of air that only reminds him of the aristocrat-like world he’s been born to invest in . but the most important detail is that , when hans plants his mouth carefully at where her dimples slightly deepen against her evenly tan skin , he means it. and hans almost always never means anything .

second.      he met her sister.

                lilo is a curious creature . hans has never truly bonded with a child before ( all of his brothers’ children hate his guts since their fathers hate him ) , but as far as his knowledge in kids go , the little one certainly isn’t so bad . lilo seems to like him enough when hans can match her dryness wit-to-wit without it sounding offensive , despite it being the few things he’s excelled at ( causing spite and making people realises he actually has thorns for teeth ) . he’s also quite interested in lilo’s passion over elvis presley , and he’s willing to negotiate on helping her find some rare CDs because he has “connections” as long as she doesn’t pull some faces that he sees she does whenever she’s agitated . ( it’s cute , and he can definitely see nani in her face and how she might’ve done the same thing when she’s young , but it certainly isn’t helping and , plus , hans doesn’t like when people makes faces — it makes him feel edgy and nervous for no reason . )

                  when he’s saying goodbye later and she’s walking him out , he comments on how much he actually likes lilo . and he’s sorry that he might — he’s awkward , and he speaks more with a young child like they’re an adult instead of the actual age . he doesn’t mean to ,  he doesn’t have much experience of speaking down to people who’re very much younger than him . in his mind , he doesn’t admit , he rarely remembers how not everybody is out there to get him and that maybe kids would just like to be treated like kids . and he doesn’t mean to be disrespectful or stern or even like some government working officials , but nani is pulling him by his collar and kissing him full on the mouth and he’s a little startled and shocked , but he melts a few seconds later and … and the kiss is warm . the kiss , hans realises … is safe .

            hans hasn’t felt safe in a long , long time . so when she pulls away , he’s not that surprised to see he’s barely breathing .     ❛    i’m confused ,     ❜    he tells her , split between smiling like an idiot and frowning from the utter confusion . she laughs , head tilted back and so fucking beautifully raw she’s haunting his goddamn mind , so he decides to settle his emotions by kissing her some more .

third.    it happened because he’s scared.

          they ended up not dating for that long before they did it . it isn’t something they both were really planning , he can tell , but it feels nice in the moment when she’s had him pinned against the wall and his hands are roaming as far as she’s allowed him to see if she’s truly tanned everywhere like he sometimes dreams her to be . he stops her when his lips grazes over her chest to tell her that , that he’s actually scared , that he’s never done this before , not the sex thing , but the … the emotional thing , and he — he really likes her , and he’s barely breathing now because this isn’t what’s supposed to happen , but he really likes her and — and he doesn’t … he doesn’t want to ruin it . 

             the kiss they share after that is sweeter , longer , and much much more passionate than the rush they’ve just had before they stumble into his clean-sheet bed . she tells him that he’s okay , that he’s fine , that she’ll stop him if she doesn’t like anything and that — that she’ll teach him . she’s okay with that , if he is . but hans is already nodding numbly because she feels so fucking safe , and she’s so goddamn sweet and hans can’t get enough of her and he wants it , he really does , and she’s so beautiful , amazing , so so kind , and she probably doesn’t deserve him at all because hans is the exact opposite of her but then she’s reaching down and hushing away and the voices in his head goes quiet and then it’s just their voices mingling and god , oh god ———

fourth.     it’s because she’s scared.

              surprisingly , for a couple who moved too fast , they’ve only had sex once . ( well , more like three times , but it all happened in the course of one night so hans doesn’t really know how to count that. ) she gets busy lots , which he understands , and father along with the navy seems rather conveniently demanding after the night , which she seems to understand . he still comes over though ; checking on lilo and her music collection because he truly does like the young girl , but there isn’t much to their relationship than just ended up curling by the couch and waiting for one of them ( her ) to fall asleep .

              one of the nights when he’s certain she’s slept and he’s checked on lilo to find her sprawled over her bed very much unladylike ( but whatever , hans still thought she was much , much cuter than all of his bratty nephews and nieces who’re already so spiteful and full of hate that hans almost pities them ) , hans attempts once more at sneaking off because he hates overstaying his welcome . ( yes , he might be seeing nani — but she hasn’t once given him permission to sleep at her house , and he’s not about to push the subject . ) that is , until he realises she’s staring back at him with her eyes wide open , mouth slightly agape and hair mused as he’s heading towards the door .

                it doesn’t take words for hans to comprehend the emotions lolling behind her much darker eyes ( she always expresses just a tad too much than she should , hans thinks rather comically ) as the reality sets in . this isn’t going to last very long , isn’t it ? her expression seems to say , and hans’ heart breaks because they both know the answer to that question . he kisses her this time because she needs it more than he does ; but he holds her afterwards because his heart needs her warmth just to survive a bit more if he ends up not going to spend his whole life in this moment . the sun rises .

fifth.    it’s to say goodbye.

             the last day before hans has to return to the mainland , he visits her . she ends up taking almost an hour break as she walks him to the jetty , smoothens down his uniform and tells him to be careful . she’s crying a little when she looks up , a little strong smile playing by her lips that make hans’ stomach clenches irritably , and hans has to swallow his own desire to bawl before he swipes one hand over her cheek , kisses her there . 

             ❛    i think i could’ve loved you ,     ❜    he admits pitifully because he’s weak and he wishes these sort of things don’t hurt much but it does ; he watches as she cries-laughs in a sad way , brushing her own tears before he could do it some more and nodding . she says , yeah , i think i could’ve loved you too , and hans smiles . cries a little , too . this time , when she brings a hand to brush his tears , he leans in and kisses her for the last time .

                —he leaves .

@onefondembrace / send me five times kissed for a drabble — highly selectively accepting !

[wayfndr-blog]

                  ❛    that’s  not  bad  ,  but  i  think  i  can  do  it  better  .    `          WHY  MUST  EVERYTHING  BE  a  challenge  ?  (  even  she  cannot  answer  that  .  )  stands  ‘side  ,  hand  ‘pon  hip  ,  brow  raised  ;  loudest  judgement  at  it’s  finest  .  learned  from  her  father  .

* *・ ☆ :⁞ ▌。— ONEFONDEMBRACE.

[rjml3]

Words are inadequate at expressing how thankful I am to have spent the last month on this life altering journey. A journey filled with adventure, nurturing, and self discovery. I'm now tasked with starting a career and life, but I promise to carry aloha in my heart and in my actions (even during those bitter east coast winters). I'm not saying goodbye, I'm saying I'll miss you until I see you again. #OneFondEmbrace #Ohana #AlohaOe #Kailua #Hawaii2016 (at Honolulu International Airport - HNL, HI)