My mad fat dairy
It’s amazing how I can relate to Rae my mad fat dairy on E4 watching season 2 episode 2, it’s like all my thoughts I have about myself, Rae somehow thinks it too! I hate to look at myself naked, avoid all mirrors when have too! I end up bullying myself when I do over my appearance? How she thinks about her and Finn is like the way I feel about me and James, I don’t understand what he see’s in me that makes him want me to be his girl? He has a pack and I have a big belly, he’s got lush blue/grey eyes I have boring hazel! He’s got good structure to his face, jaw &cheeks and I’ve got a double chin and chubby cheeks. I feel like everyone looks and thinks ‘what’s he doing with that’ ‘what happened there’ ‘why would he want her she’s fat’ ‘he could do better’ it’s okay when you see an attractive couple or an ugly couple they look right with one another but when you have one ugly and one good looking it’s like BAM that’s not right! Almost like society taking someone’s freedom to love who they want.. but the difference between me and Rae is I’m not going to give up my boyfriend because of it even if he is out of my league! Whatever he likes about me I hope it lasts.. And I’m going to hold on to him, he’s mine. I’ve looked up people he’s seen in the past and compared them to myself.. Quite depressing tbh but for some reason I can’t stop it? I’ve tried to keep a dairy but I can’t keep up with it! Personally My mad fat diary is honestly an amazing touching T.V show, it can relate to so many, and also make you feel stronger in yourself👏