Dear no one,
I like being independent. I love spending time with myself. I hate investing on things that doesn't last. My most priority is my family.. Until the end.
Yet, sometimes I long for company. Sometimes, I imagine how things would be so wonderful to have a soulmate. To have someone who'll know every You, and still love You. Still accept you and loves to unravel the mysteries of your soul. Shows you his love in his own simple unique loving ways
Someone to share the simple things. The simple touch. The simple smiles and sparks.
Someone to share the little things.
Everything doesn't have to be grand because anywhere would feel right to be with you. Someone to tell you, "You are more than worth it. I don't deserve you."
The one who finds joy and privilege by having you in life, even by getting his heart broken by you.
I'm longing for that type of love. A love that is not fragile. That some type of love like our great great great grandparents had. We change but our love doesn't.
Even better. Golden. Classic. Unending. Kind. Patient. Can grow tired but stays. Always stays until the end.
Meeting that person specifically molded by time for you to meet, for you to have and hold, love forever.
That love that defeats all lovers' love. That love that surpasses all man's affection.
Love of a lover given for you by God.
Every season, You.
But, I'm truly done looking for a future someone.
There was one day, I was young. I was on the road home. It suddenly rained lightly.
Not out of bitterness, but I've always told God that I'm okay of whatever plans He has for me. Even with Singlehood.
But you will be the only exception.
I don't know why but I felt melacholic. Downcast. For no reason at all. Drops of water on my hand, a thought came to mind. It was the day I told myself not to look for love because it felt that The One is dead.
I didn't know why I had that thought, maybe it was just me to escape reality. It was me convincing myself that I can be independent and strong.
It was me comforting myself with the idea of no one can truly love me for who I am. It was convincing myself that I don't need love from others and confine myself to their low standards just to make them stay. Just to make them love me.
No. I'm not going to chase people again. I'm not going to run after love. Because love is not something to be chased. It is genuinely given.
But if you're out there. If you could even reach this letter. If you're out there..
This is my love poem. This is your love song.
Know that I'm saving all of what I can for you. I already have a lot of things prepared to do with you.
Dates under the showering stars. Sending letters with unedning metaphors of what we feel. Kisses on cheeks under the moonlight. Singing songs of wonder under ocean of clouds. Running after each other at sunset beaches. Flying all around to catch a sight of the colors of the wind. Travelling on each country, recreating our love story.
Icecream dates and silent moments under shades of trees and on beds of flowers. Dancing on parking lots after the summer rain. Whispers of love and hugs under the falling leaves at fall. Snow angels and snowball fights with you on winter. Capturing every moment. Singing at every page. Worshiping at every season.
How are you? How I wish you're not inlove with someone else. How I hope, you're not falling for another pair of eyes, giving all your love, giving all your effort to be noticed How I wish to have all your 'firsts'. First love, first hug, arm on the shoulder, first hands to hold and wonder how every part fits together, first dates, first dance, first kiss, first heartbreak. I pray that you're not being hurt so much by other's love. I pray that you're taking good care of yourself. Please don't be inlove with someone else. Please don't have somebody waiting on you. For I already am waiting.
If you're out there. I'm doing my best to be the best version of myself when I meet you. I'm saving that "yes" especially for you in every question of "Do you want to be my girl?" and I know you have a better line than this. You know why? I was always comfortable the way it was. Distance. I'd sworn that I'm content with my own because none of a fragile love is worth the risk.
You have a better and greater unique way of winning my heart.
I pray that we'll meet soon.
You're going to be that person who knows me so well, even better than what I know of me. I'm here ready to love you dearly.
I know it will be you when even I take a step back, fate leads me two steps closer to you. And God will assure me and you that it is us, together, who will take steps further in pursuing him.
That day will be the day our eyes will meet and our soul will just long for each other. That day will be the day, you'll be so inlove with my eyes and on what lies deep within it.
And I know it will be enchanting to meet you. That night will be sparkling, the first of our page. Don't you let it go.
May our stars align one day.
I know they will.
