#operation vancon

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Well I'm finally home and I'm already sad Vancon is over

Let's revisit things that somehow happened to me this weekend

I got drunk and was hugged by Matt Cohen at a cocktail party

I hugged Osric Chau at the same cocktail party

Mark Sheppard called me "darling"

I had Jensen Ackles in a choke hold that squished his head to mine

Jared held my hand twice

TWICE

one of those times I was crying because he was calling me "sweetie" and telling me how much I was worth

how

hoW?

??????????????

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Okay so here's the full scanned version! Click for larger version :)

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I am so fucking happy for you, babe.

*holds you for the rest of eternity*

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Hey there, I just saw your post about Jared Padalecki and it actually made my eyes well up. I've been through a real rough time myself over the last couple of years and Jared and Sam have both helped me through it immensely. Seeing Jared's happy face always makes my day. I'm sorry to hear you've also had a tough time, but you are amazing for getting out of it. Sorry for the long rant, but I'm so pleased you got to meet Jared and thank him. I'm so envious and hope to do the same some day. =) <3

I hope this for you as well <3 Thank you so much for such a kind ask honey I really appreciate it. 

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I'm currently sitting in the airport waiting to catch my flight and already missing Alex like a bitch

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I would want to get autographs but they're sold out for my con :( and at first i didn't really think of getting them cuz i thought it was too much money so i'd rather just get a photo op but now i've realized that an autograph would be better because we're able to talk to them :( but anyway about the photo op, what if once you get inside it, what if you like freeze up at the moment and can't tell how you want the picture to be? cuz i honestly feel that this is going to happen to me

It'll be okay man. It's really overwhelming but it's all so fast you don't have time to freeze up. If you don't have another plan they pull you in and hug you and the picture snaps and you're done haha. You'll be okay <3

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I'll upload a better one when I can scan it BUT

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My Jared autograph story excuse me if I cry while I type this because it literally happened like ten minutes ago

I walked up to the table and tried not to pass out from nerves basically because I've been waiting for the chance to tell him something for two years now and he was right there in front of me looking at me and?????

I don't want to share exactly what I said because it's really personal but I essentially told him that Sam gave me the courage to remove myself from a very unhealthy and horrible situation in my life after years of being too afraid and confused to do anything about it and I just wanted to thank him from the bottom of my heart for that. And I started crying halfway through and he was just sitting there listening to me so intently and ugh the way he looked at me it turned me into a mess. 

And he said "First of all, I don't hear this all the time. And second of all, I'm glad Sam did this for you because you never need to be in that situation again."

And he put his hand up in the air palm out for me to take it and I put my hand against his and he literally laced his huge fingers in between mine and squeezed my hand and said "You are too good for that. You are far too good for that."

At this point I'm crying and just saying thank you over and over like an idiot and he just looked at me and smiled a little and said

"I'm so proud of you, you take care sweetie" 

and I walked away and sat down in a chair because I was so overwhelmed with finally having been able to thank him for that 

I am a literal mess right now