SCOTT SUMMERS: i'm sorry.
he said, and those two words repeated in the back of her mind over and over again. but no matter how many times he said it, it simply bounced off with no visible reaction from her. instead, bianca remained still, hands braced on top of the parapet wall of the balcony overlooking the gardens. one thing she had registered was the weather changing, it was getting darker, a storm brewing on the horizon and that familiar smell of rain in the air.
SCOTT SUMMERS: tell me how to make it better.
a drop lands on her cheek, and bianca had to brace it in order to determine whether it was a tear or a droplet of rain. the single drop was wiped over her, before finally her gaze drifted and her head tilted back to settle upon the darkened skies above. it was about to pour, sooner or later. “ i don't know if you can. ” were the first words she spoke in a while, the one's she could muster at a time like this. she always found her tongue twisting and turning, stumbling over it whence feelings were involved. “ i don't know, @opt1clops ... i just wish you'd have told me. ” all the the things they'd shared together, moments of tenderness or intimacy, any fond memory she had of them were slowly being tainted by the idea of him and her. and the thought of herself only existing in his life as a mere replacement. “ or maybe i just feel like an idiot for not realizing it myself. ” i had to hear it from someone else... the look on their face as they'd realized bianca didn't know about scott and jean. everyone knew. except for her. “ or maybe i did know, and just didn't wanna believe it. i mean, i've seen the way you look at her. ” they'd been married; they'd shared a love deeper and stronger than anyone had ever seen before, one bianca certainly had never experienced herself. she'd always known — even if after meeting him she began to doubt it — it was never her lot in life. to love, to be loved.
a set of drops fall to kiss her forehead, as the sound of the incoming rain began to ring up the gardens. “ i didn't come here to be your jean-rebound. ”
“ if i am, i pray you tell me now and stop making a fool out of me. ”