Jan 12, 2020
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#xoxo me#super emo tags ahead#draft 4#I'm honestly feeling so discouraged#just starting again and again and again#and I see so many ppl living their dreams who are so much younger than I am#and smarter#or luckier#or prettier#or whatever-er#and I'm just...#'work hard and you'll get there'#like#ok boomer#this feels like such an exercise in futility#70% of agents didn't even bother telling me no#lol fuck my life#'you wrote a book that's so awesome!!!!'#I wrote a draft ok#this is ONE draft of five#OF FIVE#I'm dead inside