just had a very healing moment of clarity that
yeah the gods I worship are there, like Loki is there for outcasts or misunderstood people, and because I do worship them and thank them they are there for me.
Reaching out to other deities is such a stark contrast of worshipping in christianity, but it’s also similar. When you look at what was done was a selfless sacrifice (when you look at this in traditional christianity this is very contradictory but from my perspective the old testament god and the new testament god are two very different beings), wanting a relationship; but that’s where it stops. With christianity there is so much you aren’t worthy of, deserving of, you are so imperfect and unclean that there is no way of even coming close to earning it, no matter how much you give. With christianity there is also so much emphasis on death of self, you are not allowed to enjoy this life because self care and taking time for yourself is selfish and taking away from time spent ‘in the faith’, time that could be better spent praying and studying the bible. that doesn’t get you anywhere. that just leads to stagnancy.
Faith can evolve in christianity only so far, in polytheism you can ask the same billion questions and you will get some sort of answer, in christianity. no questions. no questioning anything, unless it’s a GOOD and SAFE question about the bible or faith, only those questions you can ask. nothing else. you will get ignored. you will get judged. you will get pushed away.
and the fact that with paganism you are actively encouraged to do research and ask questions and form your own relationship with your deities, is just so! it’s so euphoric and different and amazing!
That is your special being you keep in contact with, who you can set mutual boundaries with, who you can have any kind of dynamic that feels right to you. It’s amazing and so so healing.
That’s kind of all I had to process for now, there absolutely will be more to come though. Thanks for taking the time to read
Blessed Be everyone 💚
[March 31, 2026]