It has been hours since this taughting rejoinder but it haunts him.
A crush, according to the dictionary, was something that happened when one developed affection for someone unobtainable or inappropriate.
It was distracting him from his work. Did he have some sort of obvious affection for Pappy? Was he going to let someone tell him who he could and could not obtain?
How would he know if he had these nebulous feelings? He cared for his brother he knew, but it was more of a memory of caring - a duty at this point then any feeling he could name.
Being level twenty separated him from people, created an emotional distance. Any number after it was superficial at best in terms of LOVE. Every number before it a measurement of your ability to care.
He knew he was lucky in some regaurds as being an integrity soul had allowed him to retain a sense of self that many did not.
He knew he felt an obligation towards Pappy, knew he wanted to utilize him to further his own goals. Pappy was not altogether disagreeable. But beyond that...
He did not know.
What he did not know could be used against him.
Not just by people who wanted to see the Monster Government fall to ruin, not just by those who wanted to see Orpheus fail... But even Pappy could use this against him if he wanted and Orpheus did not keep his gaurd up.
Then there was the competitive angle. Orpheus loved to win. He knew he was the best version of himself. If he did care for Pappy, and Pappy for him, then he obviously had to do a better job of courting him then he was courted in turn.
But how did he figure this out?













