#oursystem

[threebabies]

How could you possibly have memories from 9 months old? That’s physically impossible. The brain isn’t developed enough to retain memories from that period.

I don’t! We developed multiple personalities at age 9 months due to child abuse. Our youngest alter is 9 months old, that’s how we can tell at what age we first split and when the abuse started.

[threebabies]

How do you remember from when you're so little? 9 months old?

I don’t! Our youngest alter is only 9 months old, that’s how we know that the abuse started at that time.

[threebabies]

Can we ask to speak to certain alters? I’d love to hear from L!

Yes, you can. But I don’t know if they would be willing to talk to you. It’s not possible to talk to L, because she is just an infant and never fronts. I take care of her.

[threebabies]

Which alters have been around the longest? Who was the first? Is there anyone that identifies with the body’s birth name?

To my knowledge, L has been around the longest. She was created when the body was only 9 months old. And yes, someone identifies with the bodies birth name.

[threebabies]

When did you discover you were part of a system and that you had DID? Did your family know/were they supportive?

I think S found out about 4-5 years ago. She always knew she was different but she just couldn’t tell why. She thought that the things she was experiencing (dissociation, hearing voices, blackouts) were normal, because she’s been living with it all her life. We don’t know if our relatives know, but there are rumors inside our system that our abuser wanted us to become multiple when we were very, very young, in order to be able to control us completely.

[threebabies]

I'm not sure if this implies to you because you are a system of so many but do you remember the first time you noticed you had DID?

Yes, I do. I always had these strange symptoms, but I thought what I was experiencing was normal. The moment I realized it was DID was 3 years ago I guess. I had found a letter in my room where a girl said that her name is Emily and that she’s 5 years old. In that letter, she described some horrific abuse by her father in the perspective of a little child. I was very confused, and I didn’t know who placed that letter in my room, but with the help of a friend I found out that this girl lives inside of my own head, and that what she is saying is the truth.

[threebabies]

Do the infant alters ever front and if so, how does that look?

We have many little alters, but I only know a few that front because the others are too young. From what I’ve been told and been co-con with, it’s very funny and exciting most of the time. Our little Emily loves to cuddle her stuffed animals, and she loves to interact with people, even if their reaction is weird because of her high-pitched voice. Tobias loves dinosaurs and wants to be a fireman. Most of the time when they front, they are cuddling our stuffed animals and play as well as trying to interact with other people (if they aren’t scary to them)

[threebabies]

Who is Carrie?

Carrie is an alter from our system. She is 14, but she aged over the years. She was the one that carried our baby. That’s where her name comes from.