#overthinkingmonkey

[aryanmalik]

It starts when I stop, completely, ruining every inch of me, residing in my nerves is the better half of what I did all these years.

[aryanmalik]

It’s not easy to be high all the time.

[aryanmalik]

Should I be surprised by my tears for her?

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I often speak in my dreams, talk to myself elaborating and reconstructing the manner of dreams. I don’t know what it is but it does look like I am having a desirable amount of telepathy with my other self.

[aryanmalik]

Sometimes it’s not just a thing from mind, it’s a desire from heart.

[aryanmalik]

Day 8237

Just how pleasant it is to just stair at the empty paper, when you sit in front of it you are ready to bleed. I made a scratch on the paper just watching that black dust breaking off and flying away. It satisfies to the fullest when this happens, but it doesn’t happen everyday. That’s the point, when you try to make art you just don’t really go in a known direction. I stroke another line on the paper with more pressure and clearance. It’s Funny how things happen in every different art form.

He sat beside me with his plate and started talking, I didn’t knew him but it was a conversation soon. You don’t talk to people when you are high, you just laugh at them—mostly. He talked to me about investments, life and how a window of an apartment is so crucial. These were all different things, because I was a different man. You chose topics all along the way that suits the other person.

He chose investment as he contradicted life with it, he blended in with me in my life without even hesitating. Investing in mutual funds is subject to market risk, as he said, but soon he was into life with this particular quote. He said life is invested in those things which we see everyday through our window. Things that doesn’t matter to anyone are portrayed everyday on the window of any apartment. You see things happening at a literal alarming rate that you cannot survive if you stayed inside the apartment. When you do you die.

[aryanmalik]

Can’t able to write for a few days, I have been day dreaming.

[aryanmalik]

Day 8251

Sometimes it’s just happens when you feel low or it gets in your head… you cannot control the anatomy of a person’s emotions. I lived by just behind this guy who was an average counter part of his own shadow. He controlled peoples minds with his face; a person with so much manipulation on his face you might fall for things he offered in exchange of friendship.

I was once made to have a choice between two people, in which none I liked. The freedom to choose you own enemy is worth taking, eventually it’s the best friend who will be the enemy.