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[dailyanxnymous]

I’m Back.

It’s very comforting to drown your life in something. Falling into the void and wishing it was deep enough you couldn’t climb out of. Yet every time It is just a puddle that seems vast due to you caught up at gazing into the reflections that are cast in it.

-Daily

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Bummed Out [Freedom War: Co-Op]

Disclaimer: Freedom Wars is a game I thoroughly enjoy, but like every game playing with random people can be troublesome.

There were four players: A (the room host), R, C and I. I figured A was only on Code 4 because they were posting Code 4 quests (most players are Code 8 and post Special Ops quests). My guess was also supported by the evidence that the room was restricted to Code 4 quests or lower.

[Note: I joined A’s room because I wanted to help a low level person out. I also knew the quests would be a breeze, which is a good brake when you have been farming C and D-Type along with Alpha versions.]

A posted a quests and R, C and I would breezes through the Abductors (they were MK1 = over kill). I would congratulate everyone after the mission, even thought it was for R, C, and I. It’s a fun, “cute” little thing I like doing it to help everyone in the group feel great about the last quest.

A left the room, followed by R, after a few missions, leaving C and I. I knew C was OP (a term I use for Code 8 players who have LB weapons/deal more than 2k damage and are exceptionally good at the game). C posted a quest containing a C-Type Abductor (C and D-Type Abductors are the ones which I still struggle with when battling). I knew this was a bad idea with just the two of us fighting a C-Type, but I still accepted the quests. I thought C could be that one people who can solo this quest? Although, I had a good feeling we would fail the quest.

The first have of the quest flew by. C and I both flew through the first wave of enemies, preparing for the next, C-Type. When the C-Type first spawned, its first phase is always easy. My lack of experience fighting that type of Abductor showed, but I didn’t panic and fail the quest. Then phase two started. My inexperience shinned through as I became cannon fodder till the quest failed (we only had a total of five re-spawns. C was the one using most of them and reviving me before I would use one).

[Side Note: For some reason, after failing a quest some people feel it is “acceptable” to leave afterward. Without a word. It is a common occurrence, but not everyone will do it to you.]

Due to the kindness I had shown C and the fact this wasn’t the first quest we went on, I thought C wouldn’t leave immediately. Since they seemed experienced at the game, I thought they would give me a few tips on fighting a C-Type.

No. The quick relationship I had formed with a stranger over the internet named C was one sided. C left the room the second they loaded in, leaving me alone. Feeling bad that I had failed them.

From this story I learned that while I may be confused, mad, and sad that others will leave a room instantly after a failed quest. C left for a reason I have no idea what it is and that is okay. I shouldn’t get mad at them nor anyone else who does this. Especially considering a lot of people end playing a game on bad notes.

-Daily

[dailyanxnymous]

Sex Ed. Class, more like Ace Class. Am I right?

          Not much to this post, other then I was raised watching animals mate, so by the time I got into Sex Ed. class I already knew the basics of sex. Along with already figuring out that humans can “mate” to.

          My childhood mind in Sex Ed. class: “Yeah, I know. The penis goes in the hole and then you thrust. I understand.” I never new what a vagina was until Sex Ed. class. So there is at lest one thing I know I learned for sure.

          However, I will also say I wish I could have choice which Sex Ed. class I got to go to. The one I got suck in ended up sex shaming the other sex. No wounder girls grow up with this, “boys suck” mentality if they take a class that encourage shaming one sex just to fell better about puberty.

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Once Upon a Time...

          Let me tell you about a story of one of my friends posting a video with his girl friend. After I freaked out (in a negative way) towards the video, for some strange reason I cannot comprehend currently. I thought about that story, about how my friend found some one who they loved through something they loved.

          Keeping that story in the back of my mind with my senses normalized. I decided to take a go. The relationship experience would not kill me -even if being in a publicly label relationship makes me fell “claustrophobic”.

          I went for it and let me tell you first off, communication is by far a important aspect in a relationship. Let me also tell you that if you start off in a fake relationship, later it developing into a real relationship, make sure you tell the other person you are treating it like a real relationship.

          Long story short, I fell in love with that person who we both share a love of something. While if you ask me if I am in love, I most likely will answer with current feelings, still in denial of falling in love.

          The messaged behind this post is, take chances with relationships. You won’t die from it and never treat a relationship like a lie. It is often times best to just come clean and be with that person or not.

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What I like about guys.

          This does not technically count since I already shoved it in one of my friend’s faces when we were taking about the absolute zone but, I really like the neck, shoulders, collar bone, and jaw line of guys.

          I would love to sit down and just talk to my friends, finding out what their favorite parts are of the gender they like -other then the entire person. With this blog in play, I plain on it happening.

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Poop and pee is taboo.

          I do not see why talking about how you pee and poop is a taboo thing with my friends? It is a body function that I am not ashamed about, just like farting. 

          If it is brought up in a conversation and I have something to say about that topic, then I will say it, period. It is not my problem you find it awkward and look at me weird. I simply want to share that my body is working just fine. Not to forget, topics like that can lead into hilarious situations.

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Ready, set, go!

          I got the blog running like I said I would. Now to wait and see if I have anything on my mind.