#papillon rants

[papillon-mechant]

everybody’s writing for spider man or bridgerton or daredevil and i feel like hp is being pushed off the platform.

like it feels kinda hard to be someone who only writes for hp now cause i feel like i can’t interact with moots anymore bc i don’t watch the stuff they’re writing for now.

and it also feels like i can’t put out good content cause people wanna read about peter parker or matt murdock more than draco or the marauders.

now when i say hp is being pushed off the platform i don’t mean on purpose. i don’t mean that it’s done with malicious intent. it’s just happening because different fandoms are becoming more popular. and ofc that’s gonna happen anyway bc that’s how things work on platforms like this. i’m js it’s hard to be a solely hp blog right not. at least that’s how it feels for me

[papillon-mechant]

⚠️RANT⚠️

yk i started sunday specials to get interaction up and to be able to write some of the requests you guys have. but then no one out of 2 thousand ppl participates. so when no one participates it takes away my motivation to write cause it feels like i’m doing it for nothing. and then ppl complain that i’m not active enough but it’s hard to be active for people who don’t make you feel like it’s worth your time. it’s so hard to stay active and keep writing when it just feels like a waste of time bc no one interacts with dialogue days or new fics.

[papillon-mechant]

prom kinda sucked.

i had to do my own hair bc my hairstylist overbooked and if i had waited for him i wouldn’t have made it.

i went in thinking i was all empowered bc i didn’t have a date. then i saw ppl w/ their dates and i got a little sad but not too much. then i saw the guy i asked with the girl he actually went with and that kinda ruined my mood. especially cause their table was right next to mine.

the girl who was part of the reason my hair stylist was taking so long was sitting at my table.

it was just an overall sucky experience. it was fun for the 10 minutes that i was on the dance floor but that’s about it.

not what i was expecting from what i’d been looking forward to since i was a little kid. but whatever. at least i can say i went.

[papillon-mechant]

welp. things went to shit w/ the guy. like it always does. kinda just over this whole relationship thing.

[papillon-mechant]

sometimes i feel bad for blocking people but then i remember how easy it is to just follow people’s boundaries and/or have an age somewhere on your blog

[papillon-mechant]

i’m literally quitting i’m so done with the zero interaction atp there’s no reason for me to be here 😀

[papillon-mechant]

i begged him to kiss me, and he acted like it was the end of the world. yet he constantly pressures me into doing things for him and i do it bc i j wanna make him happy. and all i ask for, is a kiss.

[papillon-mechant]

worst part is, after all the shit he said to me last night, i still went to get him food, and begged him for a kiss before he left….

i’m never getting out of this